Thursday, September 22, 2011

Truthfully speaking, I don't like it...

I do not have a beau, a boyfriend, a boo, a sweetie pie, a sugar daddy or a booty call. I have been in an extended season of singleness and I am tired of watching couples walk hand in hand along the boardwalk. Not a complaint, just an observation...

Yes, this has been one AMAZING summer; moving to the beach, unpacking and decorating and even meeting new friends (no one tall, dark and handsome...yet) but I have met some nice people. I have used up a lot of leave at work getting to know my neighbors and seeing what my new Town has to offer and I've even had a lot of epiphany moments along with (3) rainbows and countless butterfly sightings - not to mention the brownies, funnel cake and cheesecake. All the things I love. And truth be told, I would be content staying in this sacred space until my time is up. But you and I know that I ain't got nothing to do with that. HE calls the shots!

But now that the beach has closed for the summer, it's got me feeling a little blue. Autumn begins tomorrow and it will soon be Winter. Don't get me wrong, I am so looking forward to the first snow fall across the Chesapeake Bay, but it would sure look good in my journal if I could write how I shared it with someone special.

Like I said, truthfully speaking; I don't like it. However, I LOVE the intimate moments that I've been spending with God. He is after all, my first love. And if anyone knows what's best for me, He certainly does. There is a reason that my Prince is on hold. Reasons my King has yet to reveal. He knows my heart's desire and has heard my plea, so I will continue on this path of aloneness (not loneliness) and wait on His will. I don't have to like it, but I'll do it.

Isn't that just like a child when his/her parent tells them to do something, knowing it's for their own good? They don't like it, but they do it anyway.  Because in the end, who holds the authority? -:)


Mizrepresent said...

Amen, i hear you and feel you! Hold is on the way!

A Free Spirit Butterfly said...

I am literally LAUGHING OUT LOUD, because if I'm not mistaken, isn't that a song?

I'm holding on because I DO NOT want to be in the company of a man just to "be in the company of a man. From what the Lord has revealed thus far, I'd better stock up on pjs, wool socks and flannel sheets (smile)

Love and peace!

A Lady's Life said...

you know, when you look for it it never happens.
love usually happens when you least expect it.
It just pops up and there you are lol

Don said...

Hm. I cannot quite say that I am ready for the Winter, I am not a big fan of the Summer heat but the cold, freezing weather is not my thing, either. But I am prepared, as usual.

You are a very warm-hearted, free spirited, smart, intelligent woman who remains attracted and convicted and clearly there are men who can and will appreciate you.

A Free Spirit Butterfly said...

Hello My Lady. Trust me, I'm not looking. I may be looking for the Monarch before the begin their migration, but I'm not looking for love. I had no such luck in the past and I have totally surrendered that job to the Almighty! ;-)

Good morning Don,
I have to agree, there are a few good men out there who can and will apprepricate me, but I think that most are a little afraid of my independence or married and the others have probably been hurt and are playing it slow...

At least, that's what I've convinced myself. ;-)

Love for a great day!