Wednesday, April 9, 2014

#Perserverance!

What Are You Currently Facing?
If the answer is nothing...then save this in your file for future reference.

1809 Born February 12

1816 Abraham Lincoln's family was forced out of their home and he needed to work to support his family.

1828 His sister dies

1831 A business venture failed

1832 He ran for the State Legislature. He lost.

1832 In the same year, he also lost his job. He decided he wanted to go to law school but couldn't get in.

1833 He borrowed money from a friend to start a business. By the end of the year, he was bankrupt.

1834 He ran for the State Legislature again. This time he won.

1835 The year was looking better as he was engaged to be married. Unfortunately, his fiancee died and he was grief stricken.

1836 This was the year he had a total nervous breakdown and for 6 months was bedridden.

1836 He sought to become Speaker of the State Legislature. He was defeated.

1840 He sought to become Elector. He was defeated.

1842 Marries Mary Todd. They have 4 boys but only one would live to maturity.

1843 He ran for Congress. He lost.

1846 He ran for Congress again. He won and moved to Washington.

1848 He ran for re-election to Congress. He lost.

1849 He sought the job of Land Officer in his home state. He didn't get the job.

1850 His son, Edward, dies.

1854 He ran for the Senate of the United states. He lost.

1856 He sought the Vice Presidential nomination at a national convention. He got less than 100 votes.

1858 He ran for the Senate again. He lost again.

And in...

1860 Abraham Lincoln is elected President of the United States

Persistence. Determination. A willingness to face defeat after defeat after defeat... if it meant that one day he could achieve his goal.

Are you struggling to hold on...to keep it together?

Lincoln's guide to perseverance...

Never.. ever.. Ever.. EVER give up.

If you refuse to give up, you're *guaranteed* to succeed.

#LOVE for a great day!

Tuesday, April 1, 2014

TOO Incredible Not To Share!

Hey Family and Friends :-)

I have to share this journey that I've been on. It began with a conversation on Valentine's Day. My sweet sister in Christ, Missy, wanted me to join her on a juice fast. I could not get past the fact that we were not going to be #chewing! It completely baffled my mind. All the things that I loved to eat were floating around in my head. Specifically, the pizza that we'd just indulged in from our Single Sister's Pizza Party! Not to mention the yummy yogurt treats and the cupcakes that were made with such love!

She wanted an accountability partner and thought that I would be just the one to keep her motivated. I had to be honest and say that I was not in agreement. I told her that I would have to pray about it and that I could not promise her anything.

Well, the next day, she invited me over to her house to watch a movie. "Sick Fat and Nearly Dead", by Joe Cross. All I have to say is "WOW!" Not even half way through, I was in.

We started a juice fast on March 1, 2014, and plan to go for 50 days. And I must tell you that the weight loss was a given, but the added #bonus is the fact that I feel incredible. The renewed energy and the intense clarity that you gain from eating only plant based food is truly the secret to a healthier you. It still blows my mind to think that this was all it took to get me to see that my body is very important to God and should be just as important to me. AND, not for vanity sake, but because it carries and sustains me day after day-and has since 1964.

I so love my new outlook on being healthy. It's my new #passion! I never wanted to be skinny or a size 6. I just wanted to the best version of me! I'm so there and it feels #amazing!

YOU owe it to yourselves to reevaluate your eating habits and to experience the best nutrients possible for sustaining your life. So many are simply amazed at how my body has transformed and have joined in. Even my dad, who will be 73 this June.

I don't know anyone who is willing to go the full 50 days. However, many are inspired and wanting to try it just to get the taste and feel of #something new and improved. We desperately need something different from the typical food that we've been unconsciously digesting, just because it's quick and just because it's easy.

And remember, it has to be 100% juice. (So you're going to need a #juicing machine). No smoothies and no chewing! Only if you want the best results. You can do 3-5 days. Some do 10 and some go longer. It's completely up to you and #trust me, you will not regret it. So far I've lost 19 pounds. #Warning, you will experience headaches in the first couple of days because your body will begin the detox process.  And yes, you will gain some of the weight back overtime, but the overall goal is to reboot your brain to crave healthy food and make solid nutritious decisions. Our society lives to eat and we are supposed to eat to live!

(SUPER, super BONUS...many studies have shown that it reduces your risk of getting cancer, diabetes, and various other diseases.) Now who wouldn't want that?!

Just a peak: I'm loving how my fridge looks like the produce section at the super market! So cool to me! Day #32 YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 18 more to go! And with Christ, I can and will reach my goal!

A very special #thank you to Missy who blessed me with a gift that I deeply wanted but did not know. What an amazing and priceless #early 50th Birthday gift to me!

AND A HUGE THANK YOU TO GOD!  It has been expensive but it has been the best money I ever spent and Glory to God for making continual provisions for my life!  If I was not in prayer and writing in my juice journal daily, I don't think I would have the success that I have now. He so delights in me!

#Daniel 1:12 "Please test your servants for ten days: Give us nothing be vegetables to eat and water to drink."

Tuesday, January 28, 2014

The Gift Giver

Hey there beautiful and beloved bloggers.

God is so amazing and I am here to tell you that He is the gift giver.

There was a secret dream that I held in my heart.  I never really voiced it to anyone and it is about to come true.  I cried because when I came to that realization, it dawned on me that God heard me and He knew.  He's always known.

WOW! To be known like that, who could possibly....?!?!

Only Jesus!

I'm praying that all is well with you and I would love an email if you have any prayer request.  My life involves a lot of bible study and I'm not sure when I'll have the time to come back to this blog but I cannot stop journeying with My Savior at my other blog.  He truly sustains me and I pray that over there, someone will read something and come to know and trust in Him.

His Princess Bride (my-one-true-love.blogspot.com) please visit when and if you can!

Please, I'd love to pray for you. Prayer.request2010@yahoo.com

I love you and I am asking you...Dare to put your #Faith in Him!
Amazing things are bound to happen!!!!

Free Spirit Butterfly....Yep, I'm Soaring!
Xo

Monday, November 25, 2013

From Me to YOU

I was reading a devotion yesterday and I thought of you.  Here is a prayer from my heart to yours.  I am so enjoying our study of Gideon and just as I knew he would, God is using me in a way that I am not fully comfortable with, but because insecurity is about me and not him...I am going to do it!  Will update you later :-)

In the mean time, praying that everyone will have an awesome Thanksgiving and that you will find some quiet time to count your blessings...naming them one by one and reflecting on what GOD has done!

"Dear God, My heart is moved today for people who just cannot seem to find their place. They feel lost, empty, out of place, floundering. Some are discouraged; some are depressed; some are anxious; some are hopeful; some are searching; some have given up. I pray that today will be a day of breakthrough for them. I pray that the right job, the right ministry opportunity, the right words, the right whatever it is they need will be there for them today. I pray that you will open doors and lead them through. I pray for encouragement and guidance. I pray for joy, excitement and blessings of the heart and spirit. I pray for contentment, initiative, passion, thankfulness in their attitudes today. May they look to you and receive the gifts you have in store for them. And may you, oh wonderful gracious God, be glorified. In Jesus' name I pray, amen."

All my love,
China


Friday, November 1, 2013

Blogger Haitus...

Hey there family, friends and loved ones!  Praying that all is well...mentally, physically, emotionally, financially, and of course SPIRITUALLY!

Just posting a little something in case anyone is looking for me. Lol

I just began a new 6 week bible study with my Thursday night sisters and it's really intense and personal.  It requires lots of study, meditation and a close look at self. 

We are taking a journey with Gideon in the Book of Judges.  This is just what I need so that through this process, God can purify me and expose my weaknesses.  I love when that happens and I want to give him my undivided attention.

LOVE
PEACE
And
BLESSINGS!

Your butterfly blogger :-)

Sunday, October 20, 2013

Sandcastle

the speed limit is 25 mph and strictly enforced
there are no traffic signals only stop signs
there are two bakeries...both simply delicious
funnel cakes in the summer and tasty freeze all year round
art and antiques well within walking distance
trinkets and souvenirs and a farmer's market bonanza
ducks and seagulls play for hours on end
kettle corn and flavored taffy with just enough sugar
lawn chairs and flip flops in every color imaginable
hot sand and umbrellas make it all come together
movie night and live music for lovers and children
cruise ships and sailboats set an amazing backdrop
and ginormous sunrises day after day after day
occasional weddings and events fill the calendar each year
endless fishing and horseshoe crabs cause visitors to take notice
and a humongous wooden cross stands tall in the center
the grand finale is the soft pink sandcastle that's
achored in the middle of our quaint little town
it stands four stories tall and firmly holds forty-two families
favor and blessed by my Savior
i blissfully reside in a suite on the third floor
and until the wind blows it away
i'm a real live princess living out her dream

Thursday, October 17, 2013

IF you believe, YOU have the VICTORY!

Set Your Mind on Victory:

We're currently studying "Foundations, Good and Evil" in my bible study.  I love KNOWING that the Devil has been defeated, but that does not mean that he will stop trying to take hold of your family, destroy your marriages, lure your children, cause bitterness in the work place and tempt you at every opportunity...

Pray without ceasing and keep your mind on the things of GOD.  He gave you the victory and you have to choose to walk in it!

"...everyone who is a child of God conquers the world.  And this is the VICTORY that conquers the world-our faith." 1 John 5:4

"God stripped the spiritual rulers and powers of their authority.  With the cross, he won the VICTORY and showed the world that they were powerless." Colossians 2:15

"But we thank God! He gives us the VICTORY through our Lord Jesus Christ." 1 Corinthians 15:57

"...overwhelming VICTORY is ours through Christ who loved us enough to die for us." Romans 8:37

You can choose to walk in YOUR OWN Beliefs and face the day of judgement not knowing your eternal resting place, or you can CHOOSE to walk in the way of Christ and have the assurance of VICTORY!

w/love
fsb

Thursday, October 10, 2013

Necessary Endings...

"Holding on is believing that there's only a past; letting go is knowing that there's a future." -Daphne Rose Kingma

"All endings are inexorably tied to new beginnings. That's the nature of the journey. It continues to unfold.  It builds on itself.  It can't help itself from doing that. Cherish the moments, all of them. You have seen and felt much in life so far.  But still, the best is yet to come." -Melody Beattie

"Letting go means letting be, not throwing things away. Letting go implies letting things come and go, and opening to the wisdom of simply allowing, which is called nonattachment." -Lama Surya Das

"People have a hard time letting go of their suffering. Out of a fear of the unknown, they prefer suffering that is familiar." -Thich Nhat Hanh

"Every morning, when we wake up, we have twenty-four brand-new hours to live. What a precious gift! We have the capacity to live in a way that these twenty-four hours will bring peace, joy, and happiness to ourselves and others."
 -Thich Nhat Hanh

"There are far, far better things ahead than any we leave behind." -C.S. Lewis.

"I simply cannot imagine what my life would look like if I continually held onto the past...fearing to let go and missing out on what the future holds."
 -Free Spirit Butterfly

Sunday, October 6, 2013

In This I Am Confident...

In the past, I never really felt, believed, or considered myself to be "smart." I was a pregnant teen and dropped out of High School because I was ashamed and embarrassed. I decided to attend night school instead and received my G.E.D. Much later in life, I attended George Washington University, but only because I was an employee and received a discount. I was the only black student in the Journalism class and that intimidated me. I had low self esteem, no courage and no encouragement, so I stopped going.

About a year ago, I read this quote: "A thorough knowledge of the bible is worth more than a college education." Theodore Roosevelt

My eyes lit up!!! My posture changed and my confidence soared!!! I have been deeply passionate and all consuming with God's word. For a little over a year now, I've been attending three separate bible study classes and I find great delight in spending time with Him and soaking up his precepts and will for his chosen people. God has opened my eyes and my ears to His Truth and it has completely changed my life.  With what I've learned and "gained" in wisdom, I have not kept it to myself.  God is using me to change lives!

So with that being said...I am one of the smartest women I know!

“Therefore everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man..." Matthew 7:24

"... But everyone who hears these words of mine and does not put them into practice is like a foolish man..." Matthew 7:26

The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding. For through wisdom your days will be many, and years will be added to your life. Proverbs 9:10, 11

For the foolishness of God is wiser than human wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than human strength. Brothers and sisters, think of what you were when you were called. Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many were influential; not many were of noble birth. 1 Corinthians 1:25, 26

My goal is that they may be encouraged in heart and united in love, so that they may have the full riches of complete understanding, in order that they may know the mystery of God, namely, Christ, in whom are hidden all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge. I tell you this so that no one may deceive you by fine-sounding arguments. Colossians 2:2-4

Thursday, October 3, 2013

Celebrate

A friend sent me an e-mail indicating that today is National Poetry Day and Butterfly and Hummingbird Day!

YAYYYYYYY!

I wrote the below poem in 2011 and it's in my first book :-)

IF

if i were a tree, i would be deeply rooted in the earth and happy regardless of when the seasons changed

if i were a bird, i would perch myself upon the highest branch and sight see from sun up to sun down

if i were a flower, i would be a yellow rose and smile wide each time someone called out my name

if i were a leaf, i would be the prettiest shade of red and all the other colors would envy me

if i were a seashell, i would be the rarest find on display at the Smithsonian Museum for the entire world to see

if i were a butterfly, i would migrate to CHINA to research my ancestors and then publish a book about my journey

if i were a rock, i would rest upon my owner's collectibles and everyone would want to hold me and retrace my steps

if i could be anything that i wanted to be, i would be anything besides a human being...


Sunday, September 29, 2013

Choosing to BELIEVE...

I watched a powerful movie this weekend.  "The Stoning of Soraya M." A true story about a woman who was stoned to death because her husband wanted a divorce and she'd refused to comply.

My life was nothing like hers...based on the bible and the sins that I committed, MY LIFE was worth stoning.  I should have been stoned to death; not her.

Every time I think about My Lord and My life...the one I gave to him.  The enormity of HIS FAVOR continues to overwhelm me.  When I wake up to this...


How can I not PRAISE Him?

I've said it before...most of my life was lived without a voice and because Our God is "all knowing" he has chosen to allow the remainder of my life to be quite the opposite.  I openly blog about my life here, on my Princess Bride Blog and on my Poetry and Prose blog. (Both on my Blogger's List)

Yes, I use my writing abilitites to tell everyone on Facebook, via e-mails and texts.  And also in person about His transforming my past sins into present and future work for His Kingdom.

In my what "seemed" the happiest of times, he took my husband (by divorce) my beloved four legged friend to doggie heaven and my home.  All that "so called" brought me safety and a sense of comfort.  I was at the end of myself until a friend entered my life and told me about a man named Jesus.  And in my despair, this is what He revealed to ME...

Psalm 66: 16-20 "Come and listen, all you who fear God, let me tell you what he has done for me..."
Psalm 61:1 "Hear my cry, O God; listen to my prayer."
Psalm 63:6 "On my bed I remember you; I think of you through the watches of the night."
Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean NOT on your own understanding..."
Jeremiah 29:11-14..."For I know the plans I have for you" declares the Lord..."

In May of 2008, I chose to BELIEVE.  And as a result of that belief, I began to read the word and haven't stopped since.  All the scriptures that God pointed me to were intentional.  He gave me specific instructions and I have to finish the work he gave me.  It's now my life's mission.  He said, "If you love me, you will obey my commandments."  And anyone who knows me, knows that I LOVE HIM!

My soul has finally found the rest that I was unknowingly seeking all of my life...

Ahhhhh

Thursday, September 26, 2013

God Is Mine...

My friends at church tease me because I act as though God is mine, all mine.  In my heart, I feel that He is.  We have such an intimate relationship and he fulfills all my desires.  He listens to me, he understands me, he accepts me, he longs to spend time with me, he truly has my best interest at heart and he has promised to never leave.  Not only that, day after day, he writes me the most profound love letters and creates one of kind paintings just for me. Yes!  He is mine, all mine.


last night's sunset....all for me, his princess bride

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

Programming Our Minds...

That sounds simple, but it's oh so challenging...especially with the media, radio, TV and Internet.

Dr. Charles Stanley wrote the below article and I wholeheartedly agree.  It wasn't easy for me in the beginning but overtime, I've come to control my thoughts and take the ones of my flesh captive.  Still working on it and hopeful that He will finish the work in me that He started.

According to Dr. Stanley, the mind is the control tower of life.  Decisions determine actions, which in turn affect the immediate and distant future.  The person each of us will be 20 years from now is impacted by how we think today.  If we want our future self to be pleasing to the Lord, then we must begin at once to program our mind with godly thoughts.

First we must reject worldly thinking: Romans 12:2 and Ephesians 4:23...renewing the mind.  This is done by submitting to the Holy Spirit.  If you allow him access to your life, he will convict your old ways and transform you. 

* "Trust me. He did it for me!"

A second way to submit is by sifting our thoughts through the Word and will of God.  We must consider whether an attitude or line of reasoning is pleasing to the Lord and useful for making each one of us into the person He has called us to be.  Then, when a thought is unscriptural, we can choose to reject it. 2 Cor 10:5

* I did a recent summer study with my church and the basis was: Going with God's Truth or Going with Your Feelings.

*One thing for sure: God's Truth Never Changes...but our feelings...WOW - they are continually changing.  Just look at and evaluate your relationships; both past and present, both personally and professionally.  Isn't that proof enough?!

*my input :-)

Sunday, September 22, 2013

UNBELIEVABLE...

I never dreamt...I only wrote...

Below, I'm holding my second book.  And the posted poem is published in my first book.  I never dreamed of publishing or even sharing my words publicly.  I never had a voice...just a pen and a journal.  Amazing what God does with a life that is submissive to him.  When I speak, it is not me, it's my Spirit.


Not A Poet

when i write
it is not to create a poem

it is not to arrange stanzas
and line up couplets

it is not to form 17 syllables
for the perfect haiku

it is not to have the last
line rhyme with the previous

nor is it an attempt to duplicate
a piece written by a famous poet

when i write it is not to satisfy
the reader or even myself

it is not a fixation to get my thoughts
onto paper before my memory fades

when i write it is not to one day
with hopes to some day...

when i write it is completely and
utterly beyond my control

Saturday, September 21, 2013

Submission

the dark seas are just outside my window
the barrier has been established and stands
the enormous pressure moves with force
then there are those rare moments of stillness
and repeated cycles of calm and turbulence
similar to emotions of anxiety and uncertainty
but never once do the waters test the Creator
they know not to move until commanded
so who the hell are we to outright disobey Him



















John14:15 "If you love Me, you will keep My commandments."

Thursday, September 19, 2013

Peace Be Still...

Can't wait...

I'm usually off on Fridays and Saturdays and super busy with something or another....studying, helping someone, counseling, church, work, etc...

But tomorrow, I'm free.  And it couldn't have come at a more perfect time.

I have no plans.  No errands. No appointments.  No date :-) 

There are many, many things that I could be doing and need to do, but I'm just not going to do them.

Tomorrow is going to be my sabbath. (Hebrews 4:9)
I have to work this Saturday and Sundays are my regularly scheduled work day. (LOVE it because no important people are there) Lol

Life is loud and busy...cell phones constantly ringing, texting, e-mails, horns, police sirens, gossip, idle chatter, TV, traffic, radios...etc...

In the midst of life, chaos, distractions, interruptions, tragedies, mishaps and even death...

Sometimes YOU have to just be still.

And be reminded that the world won't give you that.  It's truly a gift that you give yourself. 

Just like the love of the Father.  He doesn't force it on you; you have to want it for yourself.

Ahhh....

Can't wait...

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Yesterday I Cried

It sounds cliche' and even strange for me to say in my "line of work."  But yesterday started off the same...crime reports, conference calls and prep for meetings.  It was loud, busy, multi tasked and business as usual.

And then, (again...in my line of work) all HELL broke loose.  We were in the midst of an all out war against the enemy.  SATAN is still on attack!  In his sick and twisted mindset, he thinks he's going to reign over Jesus.

He tried yesterday, here in our Nation's Capital. 

It was a horrific and emotion filled day as 13 people were killed at the Navy Yard.  The atmosphere was full of fear, uncertainty, confusion, distress, tragedy, and UNITY.  Law Enforcement Officers from all over came together and the training and wisdom kicked in just like clock work.  It was indeed a "put your life on the line" kind of day and I cried.

We worked ALL DAY LONG and I kept thinking about God during the midst of my duties.  I kept repeating, "God is still God."  I'd look up, quote scripture and remember His promises.  Strange to say, but as we were moving from one building to another, I noticed the sun setting and it was beautiful.  "Yes, He's still there." I told myself.

And on the way home, I talked with Him in the car and cried.  I cried this morning and I'm sure I'll cry some more.  It was UGLY.  What that man did was an UGLY cowardly thing to do...but GOD is still God and He is still in control and He is BEAUTIFUL.

My prayers to the victims, their families, my colleagues, and Our Nation.

Monday, September 16, 2013

The Great I AM

If you still do not believe, this photo says it all!!!!!!

This was taken on Saturday morning as I stood in my living room. 

HE is an all consuming fire and I am His desire!

Oh how I love Him!

Sunday, September 8, 2013

Technology

he reaches for her hand ... gently

he looks into her eyes ... romantically

he whispers in her ear ... quietly

they burst into laughter ... simultaneously

his cell phone rings ... loudly

he drops her hand ... abruptly

she walked away ... angrily

he catches up to her ... quickly

he asks for forgiveness ... humbly

she grants it ... reluctantly

he reaches for her hand ... hesitantly

her cell phone rings ...







Wednesday, September 4, 2013

Find Yourself

"In the process of letting go, you will loose many things from your past but you will find yourself.” - unknown

I used to think that I wasn’t smart enough, I wasn’t pretty enough and I wasn’t good enough. No one told me these things, they were just beliefs that I created in my own mind.
I thought that my mother didn’t like me because I was a reminder of my dad, whom she no longer loved. And I thought my dad didn’t love me. He left home when I was a baby and never came back for me.
I thought that being a teenage mom and dropping out of school was the biggest shame of my life.
I thought that I failed as a wife and that "happily ever after" was all make believe.
I thought that pleasing everyone would make me a better person and cover my flaws.
I thought that I was a victim of domestic violence because he loved me so much.
I thought that if I became more like someone else and less like me, I’d be happier.
I thought that if I became a Muslim like my ex, I would finally have a “relationship with God.”
I thought that I was being sexually harassed most of my life was because I was so damn naive.
I thought that if I said how I really felt that no one would like me.
I thought that if I worked really hard I wouldn’t have to reach out for help and be disappointed when no one came to my rescue.
I thought that saving all "my" money was better than giving to someone less fortunate.
I thought that I was the only one with low self esteem, fears and huge insecuritites.
I thought that all the conversations I held with myself were the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth.
I thought I was going to heaven when I died.

NONE OF THOSE THINGS WERE TRUE!
In letting go of my past, I found truth in my Lord and Savior. Jesus helped me to find myself and my past is just that…my past.