Showing posts with label The past is history and the present is a mystery. Show all posts
Showing posts with label The past is history and the present is a mystery. Show all posts

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

What's your analogy?

What a weird question right?

As most of you know, I'm in law enforcement and I work crazy hours. Oftentimes during the late shift you're riding home alone with your thoughts. And after listening to the police radio all day, I like to ride home in peace. That is until my mind starts wandering; just as it did last night about 2am. I was looking in the rear view mirror and had this epiphany of how the rear view mirror resembled my past and how the front windshield resembles my future. Wow, I'm getting goose bumps just thinking about it.

I created this thing called a blog in May of 08 by chance. I love to write and couldn't stop writing. I overheard someone talking about a blog and googled it. Here I am with all of you and anyone else who just happens to google "afreespiritbutterfly." To be honest I still do it from time to time to see if I'm still there (lol)

I use to be such a quiet, shy, introvert with low self esteem, no voice and no power. At least that's how I saw myself. And as I think about the "small print" on the rear view mirror which says objects may appear larger/closer than there are.... That was me, no one told me those things, I created that image of myself. I was listening to Joel Osteen on Sunday and he was talking about how GOD gives you the gift of good-bye. Well he gave it to me. My divorce resulted in the bright, bold, beautiful butterfly who found her voice. She is happier than ever, confident and ready to embrace all that the Lord has in store for her. She is not afraid of the future, she no longer holds onto the past and she is been inside of me all along!