I gave everything for you by living as a man, then dying for your sins and living again. Hold back nothing from Me. Bring your most secret thoughts into the Light of My Love. I know everything about you, far more than you know of yourself. But I restrain My yearning to “fix” you, waiting instead for you to come to Me for help.
The above excerpt was a part of my morning devotion. I got stuck on the last sentence. I deeply love this journey that I am traveling. I never get tired of learning, growing and discovering His will for my life.
I love those epiphany moments and how I get such an indescribable JOY when He speaks to my spirit.
Because there were no Godly role models in my household, I had no idea that God was waiting on me to come to him. I had no idea that He was restraining himself to keep from rescuing me. He patiently waited for me to get sick and tired of spinning my wheels leading to nowhere. He knew all the “stuff” that was keeping me from Him and He allowed it to occur in order strengthen my testimony and deepen my relationship with Him. All that time and all those years, He only wanted me to return to His love. All the love and energy that I was pouring into one man after the other completely unaware that He only wanted for Himself. He created a longing in our hearts that only He can fill. (Revelation 2:4)
He is indeed a jealous God and He has every right to be. He gave up His life for me and I was too busy living mine that I made no time for Him, let alone; wholeheartedly thanking Him for what He’d done for me.
Father, all of my idols have been discarded and all of my longings lie open to You Lord. Please continue to have your way with me and allow me to live according to Your desires and surely not my own.
In Jesus' precious name. Amen
~ Love for a great week ahead