Good morning all. It's 0530 and you're all probably sound asleep or just getting up. In my line of work time is obsolete. Your life is not your own; you are a public servant and you are at the department's disposal. But anyway, I was on my way in this morning and listening to my IPOD. Surprisingly, the traffic was heavy but flowing. I thought only law enforcement, firefighters and medics worked crazy hours. I'm sorry, I keep getting off the subject.
While listening to a song by Phyllis Hyman, I felt sad for the pain that she must have been hiding. She was a beautiful and talented human being; at least on the outside. I found this on google:
"She said, `I'm not going out of the window because it would hurt all the way down,' and she was laughing because she lived on the 33rd floor," Poole said. He said, "She said she was going to do a pill overdose." "`I'm just going to take some pills and go to sleep,'" he remembered her saying.
The songbird complained "she was just existing and she didn't want to go through another 46 years of living like she had lived the last 46 ... She said July 6 was going to be a grand day."
I had planned to type another fun post, but then this hit me. Are you consumed with something in your life that is taking up a lot of your time, energy and leaving your mentally exhausted? Look around carefully at your family members, coworkers and people that you may know but don't know personally. Google the symptoms of suicide and see if you see anyone displaying the "signs." And although we never see them up close and personal, it's usually when they have successfully committed the act that we look back and remember all the red flags. So if you need someone to talk to, don't be embarrassed. Talk to a friend, a pastor or even a therapist. I'm telling you, it will help tremendously. I had a difficult decision to make once and after speaking with a therapist, I felt an incredible weight being lifted from my heart and I felt like a free spirit butterfly as I fluttered out of her office and on with my "new life."