"In the process of letting go, you will loose many things from your past but you will find yourself.” - unknown
I used to think that I wasn’t smart enough, I wasn’t pretty enough and I wasn’t good enough. No one told me these things, they were just beliefs that I created in my own mind.
I thought that my mother didn’t like me because I was a reminder of my dad, whom she no longer loved. And I thought my dad didn’t love me. He left home when I was a baby and never came back for me.
I thought that being a teenage mom and dropping out of school was the biggest shame of my life.
I thought that I failed as a wife and that "happily ever after" was all make believe.
I thought that pleasing everyone would make me a better person and cover my flaws.
I thought that I was a victim of domestic violence because he loved me so much.
I thought that if I became more like someone else and less like me, I’d be happier.
I thought that if I became a Muslim like my ex, I would finally have a “relationship with God.”
I thought that I was being sexually harassed most of my life was because I was so damn naive.
I thought that if I said how I really felt that no one would like me.
I thought that if I worked really hard I wouldn’t have to reach out for help and be disappointed when no one came to my rescue.
I thought that saving all "my" money was better than giving to someone less fortunate.
I thought that I was the only one with low self esteem, fears and huge insecuritites.
I thought that all the conversations I held with myself were the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth.
I thought I was going to heaven when I died.
NONE OF THOSE THINGS WERE TRUE!
In letting go of my past, I found truth in my Lord and Savior. Jesus helped me to find myself and my past is just that…my past.