Wednesday, June 23, 2010

What doesn't kill you, will make you stronger...

The title is a bit dramatic, but it fits me perfectly; at least for today. It's funny when I read the Bible and the "Devotionals" ask about your most trying or difficult moments, I just have to laugh. As I journey through the Bible, honestly speaking - I don't have anything to compare.

But since it's about 2000 years later, I can truly say that my most trying and difficult moments are those of most people; and that is the frustration and tension that you face in the work place.

I'm "still" the Acting Lieutenant and it's only been 1 year, 5 months and 12 days. But, "Who is counting?"

Anyway, today is another Power Point Presentation and I can honestly say that they don't scare me anymore. And, not that I was actually afraid, it was the fact that I didn't have any guidance and I did not and still do not like public speaking. Now that I've mastered them, (power points, not public speaking) I welcome the challenge. I've learned through the entire ordeal that God was trying to build up my character and take me outside my comfort zone.

Yes, I was very resistant and yes, I had a tantrum here and there. It's sounds so funny when I say it, but that experience yielded a Detective Sergeant of the year award as well as a Special Mother's Day interview in our Police News Article. WOW - how incredible is that?

And just think, I was hiding out in my own little world, hoping and praying that God would not pick me. In the end, I've adopted a new motto -
Isaiah 6:8 - Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, "Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?" And I said, "Here am I. Send me!"


Standing Able said...

PRAISE GOD for your obedience!

God will prepare you for the journey if you are willing to take it!

...and the best is yet to come, my sista! I love you Neicy and may the windows of heaven open and rain down blessing upon blessing upon you!

Peace and Grace,

Anonymous said...

This beautiful and very reassuring. I am often tasked with a challenge, and though beneficial i dread the task, esp public speaking engagements. I am doing better, but it's still daunting.

Don said...

I too am feeling this post. I am not in a field where PowerPoint presentations come into play. But I am under the belief that I would rather do my job without little or no interruptions. Well, unless I am in a comedic mood that particular day.

So in that light it's almost as if I am hiding from my fellow employers. Which, in the end, makes you post even more heartfelt.

You heard your question and provided the answer. I love the spirit being shown. It's good to see you and Stacye along your paths.


A Lady's Life said...

Congrats Butterfly!!
Just be true to yourself and it will all work out for you.
I am cheering for you.For most of my life I never talked because I thought I had nothing important to say and now I think I should have talked because its not talking that got us to this dark place in the world because we believed in a system that was taken over by the wrong people.Now the train has left the station and is running down a hill with no brakes.
Its a heck of a job to stop it now unless it meets up with another hill that goes up.

crochet lady said...

Thanks Butterfly for your kind comments on my last post, so good to hear from you.

It's a bit scary to say "here I am," but well worth it.

Toia said...

Thanks for sharing an encouraging and inspirational post. When I read your post, I thought Jeremiah 29:11. Keep up the great works!! =D

A Free Spirit Butterfly said...

Hello family and thanks for visiting me. In the world of "Law Enforcement" I cannot always sit and visit a while or express my love and gratitude all of "you" for participating my my "growth" and journey towards a kinder, gentler spirit. Like Tammy always says, "we are in deed a work in progress." I am so blessed to have had to courage to step out and blog and share myself and for that I made friends with a group of bloggers that I now consider my family!

PS - Stacye's been my sista all Blue and especially in Christ!