Christianity isn't a narcotic that dulls you into obedience. It involves battle-it's excruciating to give up control. but that is why we must not feel despair if we are struggling. To struggle does not mean we are incorrigible. It means we are alive!
A disciple says, "I hear you , Lord. It's the nuttiest thing I ever heard of. It's risky. I'll look like a fool, but I'll do it. Because my life is no longer committed to doing my thing but your thing." Heaven will not be filled with Innocent people, running around saying, "Oh, was there another way? I guess I never noticed." Rather they will say, "You bet there were other options that begged to control me. By God's grace and my struggle, Jesus is my Lord."
Is Jesus' desire to be the Lord of our lives some little fetish of his? Why is it so important to him? Why should we want him to have control of our lives? Besides the fact that he deserves it because of who he is, he knows he is the only one in the universe who can control us without destroying us. No one will ever love your wholeness. The last breath Jesus breathed on this planet was for you. And the great and joyful paradox is that while he totally transforms us he makes us more ourselves than ever before.