Leviticus 19:18 "Do not seek revenge or bear a grudge against one of your people, but love your neighbor as yourself. I am the Lord. "
Before I gave my life to Christ, I secretly held a list of people who hurt me. I had no intentions on seeking revenge; I'm just not that kind of person. But best believe, I kept mental notes and even updated them occasionally. I was quick to forgive, but forgetting was no way possible in my mind. I could go back to the first time that I felt hurt, which was when I was about 16 or 17 up until my marriage ended.
As my life began to unfold and I started peeling back the layers to get to the "root", I had a huge awakening. It all revolved around the feeling of abandonment that I carried from not knowing my birth father. The icing on the cake was the ending of my marriage; the dream that he would rescue me and make all things in the past better. How not true was that?
The Lord is the only one that can make "it" all better and he is asking us to forgive so that we can receive all the "blessings" he has in store for us. I don't know about you, but since I've forgiven all "those" people, my blessings have continuously flowed and are continuously flowing beyond anything I could have imagined. What he has in store for you is waiting for you, once you make peace with your past. The smile I wear is not one of someone who is seeking revenge, but is worn by someone who has chosen to forgive.