Free Spirit Butterfly

Silky Smooth Promises ~

2012-01-23T10:35:00.004-05:00

His swagger his smile
His game his style

The way he looks at me
It’s possibly meant to be

A subtle wink and a nod
Does he even know my God

As enticing as it seems
Not sure what it all means

But if he has no fear of the Lord
Then we’ll never be on one accord

The subtleties of Satan

2012-01-17T20:07:00.006-05:00

It was my resolution for the coming year. To draw closer to God. I took the entire month of December to meditate and pray. No TV and very little socialization. I read, studied and prepared for my new role as His Princess Bride. I took a vacation and during that time, I could feel Him drawing me nearer. It was that butterflies in the stomach feeling that I had in my youth. His love letters melted my heart and reading them over and over again put my self esteem on a plateau untouchable.

And then, I went back to work. Three days into it, I started to feel sick. A queasy tummy and repeated headaches. I tried to shake it and managed to push through the week. I was truly contemplating the unthinkable. Resigning after 21 years of service. How crazy is that? Satan was having his way in my mind and drawing me away from what my Prince promised me. That my reward is not here on earth, it does not lie in me being "happy" at work or even comfortable. I can do four more years easy IF I stay focused on my God and not my circumstances.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. This I believe and has been proven time and time again. I do nothing in my own because I am nothing on my own.

Revelation 2:10

Something to ponder...

2012-01-13T11:16:00.000-05:00

More women would submit to men if more men were to submit to God.

Welcome to 2012

2012-01-01T06:46:00.001-05:00

God is faithful. He has sustained the earth and everything in it. He makes the ultimate decision of when this planet will cease to exist. Are we truly in alignment with His will? Are we making a positive impact with the gift of life that we've been given? As long as we are in the flesh, our natural reaction is to be about self. It takes a conscious effort to be selfless and takes even more of an effort to love others who are not like us.

This year, please no more... promising to loose weight, promising to manage our money, being a better employee, cleaning out the clutter, and all the generic stuff that we say to ourselves and then let that fall gently by the waist side.

Do something BIG for God. Do something that will show others how mighty His Power is and how His giving of His Son was not in vain. Acknowledge the Creator, the creation and all the marvelous things we oftentimes take for granted - Romans 1:20. Stop allowing the human mind to be consumed with the many, many things of this world.

Choose to LOVE the unlovable, choose to FORGIVE the unforgivable and choose the PEACE that Jesus freely offers us in scripture - John 14:27. Family and friends really do have the best intentions. But in the end, there is absolutely no love like the love of the Heavenly Father for His children.

Love for a great year!
Free Spirit Butterfly

Work isn't so bad...

2011-12-20T07:30:00.005-05:00

There are days when I am searching for a good reason to call in. A day where I can pretend that I'm a writer and not a cop. I long to just work at my leisure, along with a cup of herbal tea and the sweet bird's song in the background. And then around lunch time, I'd take a walk along the seashore, become inspired by something I've seen, heard or read and then go back to my home office and let the creativity take flight.

Before I even realize it, being so involved in my craft, the sun begins to set and I am frozen in time. Just staring at God's handiwork. I admire with a humble and grateful heart. I then make my way to the kitchen and see what's for dinner. Fooling myself into thinking that I could whip up a small gourmet meal, I then reach for the phone and order in.

And the grand finale would be a hot bubble bath, a scented candle and a calm reflection on my entire day.

With all that being said - I am a cop. Yes, this isn't my dream job, but it does have its perks. I get to help people, support and encourage and prayerfully, leave them with some kind of comfort that they are not alone.
As for the job itself, it isn't so bad. Specifically on Tuesdays and Thursdays. All is calm and I am able to hear my thoughts, catch up on some paperwork and give my undivided attention. My team is a great fit and we truly have become a family. Not to say that I wont' retire in the next four years, but for now... it isn't so bad.

I am grateful and I appreciate every day that the Lord has blessed me with.

Haiku

2011-12-14T05:52:00.002-05:00

Sleepless night ~
In the absence of love
I wallpapered my bedroom
Until my fingers went numb

Yesterday, I was feeling blue...

2011-12-06T11:01:00.004-05:00

But today, there is new grace and new mercy. How faithful is our God? I just love him so much!
Love for a great day everyone!

I'm not trying to be a party pooper. Really, I'm not.

2011-12-01T08:14:00.001-05:00

We are still at war.

The government is completely out of control.

There are homeless people every where you look.

Our children are not getting their proper nutrition.

The American Dream homes are in foreclsoure.

Thousands are being laid off as I type this.

Is anyone keeping track of the suicide rate?

How can we go Christmas shopping?

I'm not trying to ruin any one's Holidays. I just don't feel right going Christmas Shopping when we have so much despair in our society. Please find it in your hearts to do something for a complete stranger this year. A gift, a card, some groceries, a gas card, recommend someone for a job, and lastly; keep praying that this too, shall pass.

Jesus is coming. The date and time is unknown, but when he does, will he know you and will he give you your just rewards for your deeds on earth?

Love and prayers
FSB

My first Christmas on the Beach ~ YAY!

2011-11-27T10:56:00.001-05:00

This is my tree...

And this is THIERS.... WOW

This is me having a ball on my day off and walking along the boardwalk. God is truly amazing and I for one, love to praise Him for the little things. He is my joy and my strength and not because He moved me to the beach. Because HE knows me and loves me inspite of myself! That's my story and I'm sticking with it!!!!

Ouch!

2011-11-11T16:29:00.002-05:00

First of all, I would like to say a very special THANK YOU to our Veterans and Soldiers. I am grateful beyond words for your service and protection. Peace be with you and your loved ones.
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I had to post this below msg. And boy does it sting. I am doing my Bible study and happened upon this:

C. S. Lewis wrote, "We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea. We are far too easily pleased."

The study question for the student is:
What do you think Lewis means that "we are far too easily pleased?"

11/11/11
1626 hrs.

Sent w/love

The traveling pennies...

2011-11-04T09:08:00.000-04:00

I have carried around a jug of pennies in the back of my car for at least two months. They started off in Northwest, WDC, and moved on to Forestville, Md. They "somehow" ended up in Waldorf, Md. The final destination, or so I thought, was North Beach, Md. The only thing was...in my singleness and a bit stuborn behavior, I could not get them upsatairs. It was just to heavy. So I poured what I could into a duffle bag and left the rest in the car with intentions on....I haven't a clue.

My sweet friend Angie had a need... (see below)

Journey of the Pennies of Love and Hope…

God honored you by having you become the steward of thousands of blessings (the bottle of Love and Hope) …The journey begins as they came together after living all over the world…passing through thousands of people and providing small blessings along the way … God saw you and watch your growth, He then choose you to be the person to gather these blessings, fill them with love... and while they individually blessed people, God decided to designed their purpose as a group (Pennie of Love and Hope), which was to be used in blessing His people …under your loving care they traveled throughout the streets of Washington, D.C., making a few detours in Maryland and finally finding rest in the back seat of a red “Charger”, God waited (2) weeks until He decided the next step in their journey… their steps were order by our Father…. and he had already designed their purpose…which is in blessing the kids in Kenya through a partnership between Zion Church and World Hope. WOW… Thank you for allowing God to speak to your heart.

The total from The Pennies of Love and Hope is $102.00 US which will go towards sponsoring 1 child’s (education and food) for a year. Once again “Thank” you so much…

Angela M. Washington

On a break....

2011-10-25T07:35:00.001-04:00

My journey with God is keeping me busy and I'm loving every minute of it.

Miss and love all of you and keeping you in prayer.

Remember to send me any prayer request that you may have at prayer.request2010@yahoo.com

Nothing is too big or too small for God to handle. He is always near and He loves you without conditions!

sent w/love
fsb

talk to you soon.

Food for thought ~

2011-10-13T16:49:00.000-04:00

In the forty years that Moses and the Israelites wandered the desert, how many times did they go shopping?

My God will supply all your needs!

How did that get in there?

2011-10-06T05:49:00.001-04:00

We ALL have one, me included. I'm a Christian and I have a junk drawer. It drives me crazy, every so often when I open it up and swear that it was just cleaned the day before. Frustrated and irritated, I clean it once more. Like an ex-boyfriend, it somehow finds its way back into my life ;-)

We don't have to wait for Spring Cleaning to move some stuff around, discard and/or organize our lives. Have you forgotten what God can do for you? He has the power to change those areas of our lives that desperately need his touch. We are constantly in need of cleaning and straightening - gossip, yelling, gluttony, complaining, bitterness, fretting, jealousy, worry, pride, uncommitted struggles, impatience - all jammed way back in the corners of our junk drawer.

Unfortunately, they can't and won't straighten themselves out. That's where the Almighty God of the Universe comes in. Ahhh, deep breath - Lord, I need your help. He longs to help us in those areas where we just can't quite do it on our own.

Will you let Him help you today? After all, you don't want your stuff to start spilling over do you? (lol)

Sent w/love
FSB

BTW - This was part of a devotional I read this morning.

My love language...

2011-09-29T06:23:00.004-04:00

Okay, about that last post, my love tank was on low. I went to Ohio to spend some much needed QUALITY time with my dad. Yes, I'm 47 and I'm a daddy's girl.

It was just what the doctor ordered. TV marathons (Law and Order & NCIS), junk food (pizza, cookies & wings), great coffee, with lots of cream, my pjs and endless laughter. Not to mention the Tender Loving Care. Just by being in his presence makes my heart happy. The serenity and the stillness of life there is priceless.

Do you know your love language? Mine happens to be quality time. Running a close second is Acts of service. Don't get me wrong, a girl loves to hear those infamous "I love yous" repeatedly from the right guy, but I want his actions to be in alignment with his words.

In the end, you'll discover what fuels your love tank, if you don't already know. Below are the (5) choices. I have the book and it talks in great detail about "our partner" not knowing it and working hard in all the wrong areas trying to please you. Just maybe if he/she knew your love language, something may shift in a positive direction. "Just food for thought."

Quality Time
Acts of Service
Physical Touch
Gifts (receiving)
Words of Affirmation

Truthfully speaking, I don't like it...

2011-09-22T21:53:00.007-04:00

I do not have a beau, a boyfriend, a boo, a sweetie pie, a sugar daddy or a booty call. I have been in an extended season of singleness and I am tired of watching couples walk hand in hand along the boardwalk. Not a complaint, just an observation...

Yes, this has been one AMAZING summer; moving to the beach, unpacking and decorating and even meeting new friends (no one tall, dark and handsome...yet) but I have met some nice people. I have used up a lot of leave at work getting to know my neighbors and seeing what my new Town has to offer and I've even had a lot of epiphany moments along with (3) rainbows and countless butterfly sightings - not to mention the brownies, funnel cake and cheesecake. All the things I love. And truth be told, I would be content staying in this sacred space until my time is up. But you and I know that I ain't got nothing to do with that. HE calls the shots!

But now that the beach has closed for the summer, it's got me feeling a little blue. Autumn begins tomorrow and it will soon be Winter. Don't get me wrong, I am so looking forward to the first snow fall across the Chesapeake Bay, but it would sure look good in my journal if I could write how I shared it with someone special.

Like I said, truthfully speaking; I don't like it. However, I LOVE the intimate moments that I've been spending with God. He is after all, my first love. And if anyone knows what's best for me, He certainly does. There is a reason that my Prince is on hold. Reasons my King has yet to reveal. He knows my heart's desire and has heard my plea, so I will continue on this path of aloneness (not loneliness) and wait on His will. I don't have to like it, but I'll do it.

Isn't that just like a child when his/her parent tells them to do something, knowing it's for their own good? They don't like it, but they do it anyway. Because in the end, who holds the authority? -:)

I have 5 sisters

2011-09-20T16:49:00.001-04:00

Yes, I have 5 sisters. Just as I typed the first sentence, I realized that I've never said that out loud before. My 5th sister's name is Kendra and she's about to become a bride. She is also a brand new blogger. "My time to shine."

My dad bought 4 copies of my book and gave one to her. Immediately after reading it, she text me to say that she had never realized how much we had in common. She was truly inspired and admitted that she has some unfinished works of her own that she'd like to put to print. I told her that although I've been writing since 7th grade, blogging helped me to ease the fear that I may never publish a book. How wrong was I? It not only helped me to make peace with my past, it led me to submit my work and finally let go of my perception of what others thought of me.

Now she has decided to blog about her life's journey in hopes to free herself of somethings that have kept her from her true happiness. In the end, don't we all want to be happy? Well, once again, after I've typed something, I oftentimes have a revelation. I want JOY. Happiness is fleeting and I think deep down inside, we all want JOY. It is constant and it is something that humans simply cannot give us.

My sister and I met in 2003 at my dad's house. That was the year that I found my birth father and discovered that I had a sister and a brother named Farron. I have to be honest and say that she and I didn't really hit it off and over time, we didn't really keep in touch. I think it was the initial shock, followed by the 5 investigative questions, "Who, what, when, why and how?"

After the big celebration and welcome mat, I went back to my normal life. My normal life included four sisters, "Maria, Marty, Holly & Kim" and a lot of busyness. Truly, was I that busy? After all, isn't family supposed to be the glue that holds us together? Isn't the old saying, "Friends and lovers come and go, but like it or not, family ain't going nowhere?" (I just made that up) lol

Are there any wounds from your past that need revisiting? Is there any unfinished business that needs addressing? Are you holding out for an apology that you may never get?

Let's make a conscious decision to go back there, to go back and talk, listen and make peace. We don't have to agree, we don't even have to visit afterwards, but we should at least acknowledge the fact that no one is perfect and if our God can forgive us, who are we to hold a grudge?

I for one am glad that she and I are at peace with our past and making plans for our future. For me, I've discovered that LOVE is not as easy as the Bible makes it seem, but the reward is certainly worth the effort.

Here's a toast to forgiveness!

Love and peace
FSB

Dear Diary,

2011-09-16T16:10:00.003-04:00

This entry is going to be pretty boring to most, but it's my blog and it's my kind of day. It started with a cup of coffee from Blondie's and a yummy crouissant. I would usually volunteer on Friday's but my back is still recuperating from the pulled muscles and I'm still a little high from all the meds ;-)

After my short breakfast, I sent out an e-mail to my sisters in Christ about last night's Bible study. The class was just too much for me and I couldn't keep it to myself. Isn't each one supposed to teach one?

Not long after that, my son called. We shared something so funny that we were in tears for about 3 minutes or so from all the laughter. He is in deed my bliss. My daughter was at work and I text her to let her know that I loved her and then I went to Sweet Sue's for a cup of coffee. I also like to chit chat w/the girls there. They're so nice and the energy they put out keeps me young. Strange that I say that because after I left to sit outside the cafe, Lauren, one of the bakers, came right behind me and invited me to hang out w/her and the girls one night for some Sushi. Yay, my kind of fun. When she walked away, I was wondering if they knew that I was actually 47 ;-)

Next, I text my sisters. I wanted to let them know that the Farmer's Market was coming tonight and that the Kettle Corn would be making an appearance. Another yummy moment. I then learned that they will be having a Bonfire on the beach for the kids w/s'mores. I wonder if grown ups can have one too?

Well, even if they can, I can't make it because I will be at my Writer's Work-shop. I can not begin to tell you how my dreams are coming to pass, and so quickly. I created a Life List on April 7th, (my dad said that I can't call it a Bucket List) but anyway, thus far 3 things have already come to life. And now as I type this, it really isn't my Life List, it's truly God's will!

That pretty much wraps up my day.

The coolest thing ever...

2011-09-08T06:55:00.003-04:00

Am I the only one? Has anyone out there turned their blog into a book yet? Google is simply amazing. I logged on just before Hurricane Irene came to town and Google led me to a site that turns your blog into a book. (Creat your blog book here) It's the coolest thing ever. You simply pick your front and back cover and the dates of the post you want to print. It will show you in a matter of minutes and then you order "Your" very own blog book. Mine came in the mail on Tuesday. It's so awesome to read my very first blog post from May 2008, not knowing that one day my life's story would be so public. Not only did I share a lot of stuff, I shared a lot of stuff with you.

I truly put myself out there and guess what? I don't regret one single word. This thing started because I had some baggage to unpack and in doing so, I've completely freed myself from my past, my old beliefs and my old wounds.

I ordered one for each of my children so that they can read about their mom's contribution towards the blogsphere and also have a small legacy of who I used to be. After all, I certainly don't have an inheritance to leave behind. (lol)

sent w/lots of love
fsb

Only by the Grace of God!

2011-08-27T11:35:00.001-04:00

I am a published author and I am so excited. This is one of many dreams that I've held in my heart. The Lord moved me to the Beach, which was a dream of mine and now, I've published my first book!

He is in deed my saving Grace. Without Him, I am nothing and with Him ALL things are possible to those who B-E-L-I-E-V-E.

Please click the below link if you would like to purchase a copy of my book and please e-mail me if you have any questions about the self publishing process. Please know that the proceeds are very small and will be donated to a very worthy cause. For me, it is NOT about the money. My treasures are in Heaven!

www.xlibris.com/PoetryandProse.html

Always sent with love and prayers,
FSB

aluv4poetry@yahoo.com

PS ~ This book does contain some poems from my Poetry and Prose blog but not in its entirety!

The Lord wanted me to remind you of this...

2011-08-16T06:24:00.006-04:00

In my Father's house are many mansions: if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again, and receive you unto myself; that where I am, there ye may be also. John 14:2,3

For the Lord himself shall descend from heaven with a shout, with the voice of the archangel, and with the trump of God: and the dead in Christ shall rise first: Then we which are alive and remain shall be caught up together with them in the clouds, to meet the Lord in the air: and so shall we ever be with the Lord.
I Thessalonians 4:16,17

I don't know about you, but this just gives me such peace!

sent w/love
fsb

Very important message...

2011-08-13T12:30:00.001-04:00

Happy Saturday blog family!

Please visit my friend Sherry (Country Wings in Phoenix) and post a comment for a very important cause! God put us here to bless others and who can deny Him that?

Love and hugs for a great weekend
FSB

A quick update and 2 epiphanies ~

2011-08-04T08:13:00.001-04:00

GM beautiful blog family ~

Just wanted to give you a quick update. As you know, I just finished volunteering with the Kindergartners at Mt. Hope Elementary and that season has passed. If I were to go back this year, the commute would be an hour and a half. I asked God to use me in my new neighborhood so tomorrow will be my first day volunteering at the Habitat for Humanity Furniture store. I'm so looking forward to it and possibly witnessing to someone as the journey progresses.

I'm also asking that you keep me in prayer as I have submitted my Poetry and Prose book to the Publisher and if it's God's will, it should be ready by the end of September. (Yay)

1st Epiphany - I no longer long to be a bird, flying high in the sky wanting to disappear. I am flying high on God's Grace and the birds visit me every single day on the beach!

2nd Epiphany - I no longer count and track the butterflies as I go about my day. They live across the street, around the corner and down by the bakery. They are everywhere and we are just having a ball getting to know one another. For the first time ever, I captured a photo of the Monarch! For a preview, please click the link here (His Grace is Sufficient) WOW!!!!! I almost peed my pants with excitement (lol)

Make it a great day in the Lord and don't forget to send me your prayer request as the need arises.
Sent w/lots of love
FSB ~

His will be done...

2011-07-24T06:27:00.002-04:00

If you have been following my blog then you know my journey... I have truly poured out my heart and soul through google in hopes to change at least one life to include my own. Well I'd like to think that I have and wow, what a transformation. With that being said, I'm going to take a break, yes, another one. Since my move, I have discovered that the internet and cell phone service in my new neighborhood is very poor. Depending on where I sit or stand, I can barely carry on a conversation. It's driving my kids crazy and at times, I just laugh. They seem to forget that if push comes to shove, they have to either call 911 or GOD ;-).
All I can do is get in the car and hopes that GiGi (my car) makes it there safely, if an emergency should arise. Other than that, I tell them that I LOVE them and I'll talk to them later.

GOD has plans for me and I am so looking forward to becoming closer and more intimate with HIM. Don't get me wrong, I love my son and my daughter, my parents and my siblings, but I don't think GOD gave me this blessing to sit and chit chat on the phone, surf the net or watch more TV. (Speaking of TV, I am free of CABLE and it feels wonderful!)

I am going to miss you all and as always, you can send prayer request to prayer.request2010@yahoo.com or just send a hello to aluv4poetry@yahoo.com

Other than that, be safe, stay in prayer and listen for the whisphers of His voice. He indeed has something to tell you! Love, peace and blessings for a great summer and hope to see you in the fall.

Please excuse the photos, I do not know how to rotate them,

but if you turn you're head, they're really cool ;-) Love ya!

My Birthday Gift from GOD!

2011-07-06T10:40:00.001-04:00

Look what Jesus gave me for my 47th Birthday! I will be 47 on July 14th and is this an awesome gift or what? This is a picture of my new front yard. I'm renting a condo on the beach and there are absolutely no words, just tears of gratitude.

I'm still packing and moving so I'll be back to chat later. As always, lots of love and prayers!

Free Spirt Humble Butterfly!

Praise report!

2011-06-11T08:52:00.006-04:00

Good morning blog family. WOW - Have I got some news for you. I have been in the midst of some stuff and while waiting on God, I've been praying, meditating and journaling. He does in deed hear our prayer requests, our pleas for help and deeply wants to give us our heart's desire when we submit to him.
I am one of those Americans whose house is going into foreclosure and before you feel sorry for me...wait.

I was working like a slave and trying to keep it together while having no real life and spending no quality time with my family and friends. I've been working hard all my life and working and saving was my claim to fame. Well now JESUS CHRIST is my claim to fame and my SAVING GRACE!
When Max died last August, my doctor told me about Chesapeake Beach. "Ocean City" was the love of my life. "Where is this Chesapeake Beach?" I asked her. That night, I Googled it and went the following morning. The day was spent w/tears, raindrops, poetry, the presence of the Lord and the cutest yellow house at the end of the pier. I said, "God can I please live there?"

This year I have been there at least 7 times and still ask God if I can live in the little yellow house. Well guess what? He said, "No, you cannot but you can live in the apartments down the street!"
Yes, I'm moving to the beach. Not near it but ON IT! And the most amazing thing about it is the fact that I made a "life list" after writing a poem during April's National Poetry Month titled The Happy Minority. It is a poem about doing all the things you want to do with "you" while you're single. One of the things that I listed was to spend the summer on the beach. I truly wrote it down because it sounded good. I had no intentions of taking off work for a summer and being a beach bum. But my oh my does the LORD have dreams bigger than our own! For years now, I've been asking Him when I retire, if I could live on the water. I had no IDEA that He'd give it to me now and right before my birthday. Is that an awesome BIRTHDAY gift or what?

I will be getting off work every day for the next 365 days and driving home to the beach. I will be surrounded by God, sunsets, fluffy clouds, the song birds and butterflies. Oh, and the sweet sound of ocean waves. Come what may, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me! I bet Max is rolling around in heaven happy as a peach.
Well that's all for now. Once I settle in, I will post some photos and continue to share my journey. After saying all this, it is my deepest prayer that I will be able to witness to someone in my new neighborhood about Jesus, his grace and goodness and most of all his FORGIVENESS of sins and gift of SALVATION!

sent w/love
fsb

PS ~ A special thanks to Stacie, Frieda, my mom, David, Karen, Leslie, Dave, Dawn, Emmie and all the people who put this prayer on the list.

Here are some Psalms that helped me during my trials.
Psalm 66:16-20, Psalm 73:26, Psalm 37:4, Psalm 23, Jeremiah 29:11-13 and Lamentations 3:23-26!

I won't be posting for a while because I will be packing and stuff. Be blessed and please e-mail if you are in need of a prayer request. It's 0917 hours and just before logging off, a yellow butterfly just fluttered by my window. GOD IS NEAR, yes He is!

On a personal note ~

2011-05-20T11:04:00.005-04:00

Today holds a very significant meaning for me. And today of all days, I have a headache that won't quit. While sitting here at work so wishing I were some place else, out of nowhere, the Monarch flutters by my window at 10:38 hours. Is God awesome or what?

Love for a great day!
FSB

When I go to Heaven...

2011-05-10T06:48:00.003-04:00

GM blog family,

I'm borrowing this blog post from my new friend and brother in Christ, Ron. Please visit him when you have a moment at "The Old Geezer."
When I go to Heaven, I want one of my sisters to sign onto my blog and write the below message... And please don't say rest in peace, because I LIVE in peace ;-)

~ Free Spirit Butterfly

Don't cry for me
I knew love
I felt loved
I was loved
unconditionally by Him

July 14, 1964 ~

National Day of Prayer

2011-05-05T05:46:00.004-04:00

GM blog family. The below msg is something I sent out to my staff this morning and wanted to share w/you. I'm here if you need me. However, I will not post my number for texting ;-)

Good morning staff,

Today is National Day of Prayer. I just wanted you to know that if there is something on your heart ~ mentally, physically, emotionally, financially or spiritually, that you are dealing with, I would like to pray for you. You can see me in private, text me, call me or e-mail me at prayer.request2010@yahoo.com

In this busy, crazy, consumed world, please know that you are not alone.
sent w/love

The Monarchs are on their way...

2011-04-17T13:26:00.005-04:00

Praying that you all have an awesome Spring and Summer and also discover something new about yourselves along the way. ~ Sent w/love always, Free Spirit Butterfly!

We are not in control of anything!

2011-04-10T08:47:00.006-04:00

Good morning blog family. I am still on hiatus, but I felt the need to post today. One of my blog friends is in need of prayer. At my church we call it "unspoken prayer request" when the person chooses to be discreet. I have to say that my God is an awesome God and if you don't believe that, just sit with the word BLOG for a minute or two. It may seem as if Google invented the weird word and that we all uniquely created one and decided to follow them, but the Word of God tells me that nothing happens that he has not already ordained for my life. And if that's the case, then the exact same applies to yours.
This thing, journey, quest, or adventure that we are all on is truly not about us or anything that we may be experiencing. Death, financial difficulties, unemployment, aches and pains that just won't quit, disobedient kids, martial rift, disgruntle bosses, etc... I could go on and on but I just named a few generic stuff that isn't specific to one blogger. It is all created to Glorify Him when, not if, but when He brings us through the other side of the storm. Not around it or over it, but through it. I have indeed experienced enough of all that I've previously mentioned, aside from the loss of a job, to know that He is faithful and only in His time. We would not have had the chance to meet such beautiful, creative and interesting people, had He not allowed us to become bloggers.
Without blogging, I'm certain that I would not have had the occasion to travel to your neck of the woods, bump into you and develop a friendship. I am so very grateful that I took a big leap outside my quiet comfort zone and decided to put myself and my life's journey out into the blogsphere. If I had stayed in my little cocoon, I would not be posting this entry asking my blog friends to pray for a fellow blogger. We all know that PRAYER is a mighty force that brings about enormous results for those that BELIEVE. I am a believer and I'm praying for my friend as well as for all of you. sent w/love fsb

National Poetry Month Begins...

2011-04-01T09:12:00.008-04:00

Here are some of my favorite poems. Enjoy!
~Psalm 55:6&7 And I said, Oh that I had wings like a dove! For then would I fly away, and be at rest. Lo, then would I wander far off, and remain in the wilderness.
~Psalm 85:10 Mercy and truth are met together; righteousness and peace have kissed each other.
~Song of Solomon 2:7 ... that ye stir not up, nor awake my love, till he pleases.
~Be blessed in His tender loving care. w/love fsb

Blog break...

2011-03-01T12:01:00.005-05:00

Psalm 42:2
My soul thirst for God, for the living God.
When can I go and meet with God?

Hey family -
Just feeling the need to take a blog break. Love, peace and blessings!

Staying Spiritual Sage

2011-02-16T10:55:00.003-05:00

An excerpt from my Women's Devotional NIV

Huldah, a prophetess in Judah - reference 2 Kings 22:14

With a reputation for integrity, truthfulness and spiritual discernment, she was the natural choice to handle such sensitive information related to the newly rediscovered Book of the Law.

"I never know when someone will need me," she often said. She never knew when she would need to share a word of wisdom or petition the Lord on the people's behalf, so she had to stay prepared. She couldn't slack of, spiritually speaking. She drew strength by reminding herself that she couldn't afford to miss an opportunity to be available and useful to God.

"You never know when someone will show up on your doorstep seeking spiritual wisdom," Huldah would often say. "Sometimes, it's your friend or neighbor. Sometimes it's the king.

Today's prayer - Gracious God, keep me prepared so that I may be of service to others in need. Give me the wisdom and discernment to find the rights words to help where I can.

In Christ name, this is my prayer -
Amen.

2011-02-14T11:40:00.002-05:00

Happy Valentine's Day to the Love of my life
my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ

He loved me first, unconditionally
He loves me most for being me

He cares about my hopes and dreams
He walks beside me or so it seems

He forgives my sins and hears my prayers
He protects my heart, beneath the layers

He keeps his word and cannot lie
He says I'm the apple of his eye

He holds my hand and won't let go
He offers Salvation, this I know

Happy Valentine's Day to the love of my life
my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ

Is it just me?

2011-02-10T08:19:00.006-05:00

Why do some men have a problem with a female supervisor?
Is it because I strut my stuff with confidence?
Is it because I can do it in 3" stilettos?
Is it because I smell pretty?
Is it because I am too courteous?
Is it because I smile at you and you take it the wrong way?
Is it because I show no favoritism?
Is it because I instruct and correct w/love?
Is it because I do not wear dark suits?
Is it because I can do two things at once?
Is it because I do not participate in the football pool?
Is it because I resemble an old love or past hurts?
Or is it simply because I earned "it" without sleeping with anyone to get it?

I just can't figure out why they don't like this funny, sweet, compassionate, brings life to the office-girl who wouldn't hurt a fly. But then again, as I type this, it truly isn't about me, is it? A lot of "people" are walking wounded. They have unresolved issues from the past and they mask it with a nice outfit and a generic smile.

My heartfelt prayers are with those individuals.

w/love
Sgt. Butterfly

Real Joy

2011-02-05T11:54:00.008-05:00

I am currently going through a personal trial and I am certain with everything in my being that I will come out a Victor. There were numerous times in my past where I was a "victim." I allowed people to take advantage of me, I was a victim of domestic violence, an old employer sexually harassed me until I could no longer take it and ended up quitting, and I've even suffered a broken heart on more than one occasion.

I am not "that" person any longer. I am no longer the "caterpillar" I once was. Some of my friends and family members probably wonder why I "always" appear joyful. I know some people wonder how is it that I smile all the time and why my laughter sounds so infectious "as my dad says." And there may even be a few who wonder if "it's real." The answer is YES! It is real. The JOY of the Lord is my strength. I don't know about you and I'm certainly no EXPERT (not yet anyway), but I've read enough of the Bible to Trust in Him and to Believe in His promises. What possible reason could He have to deceive us?

During this current trial I'm experiencing, I happened upon Psalm 13. And as I type this, I truly need to correct myself. The Holy Spirit led me to Psalm 13. Wherein King David asked the Lord (4) times, "How long?" And in the end, he simply said, "I will sing the Lord's praises for he has been good to me."

That's exactly how I feel. I often wonder how long and when I finish asking, I can hear the Holy Spirit whispering, "Until God says so." Then I take a deep breath and remember all the times in the past where I wondered the exact same thing and came out a Victor!

You too can have real joy! He doesn't just promise it to some of us. He has no favorites, we're all His children.

w/love and grace
free spirit butterfly

Contentment

2011-01-28T19:06:00.006-05:00

I found this Psalm last summer while in the middle of changing a flower pot. I was in the kitchen and my Bible CD was playing in the background. I've heard it before, but oftentimes, depending on where we are in our lives and our walks, Scriptures and Psalms have different meanings. I was "in a place in my life" where I really needed Psalm 131:1-2.

The below is an excerpt from one of my New Bibles referencing Psalm 131.

"The Poet no longer felt torn apart by inner nagging and turmoil. He had come to terms with himself and thus experienced inner peace. The psalmist used a metaphor easily understood by mothers to describe his new found serenity. A child that is weaned no longer struggles for milk when held on its mother's breast...

The psalmist advised Israel to trust in the Lord and not to depend on themselves. Only then would God's people know true serenity, security, and contentment."

w/love
free spirit butterfly

Meditate on this...

2011-01-20T05:59:00.001-05:00

How many times has Christ forgiven you?

w/love
China

My reflection

2011-01-12T17:37:00.006-05:00

I am a child of God. I no longer feel quiet, shy, shame, guilt, fear, voiceless, weak, jealous, insecure, unattractive or powerless. Now when I look in the mirror, I smile as wide as the ocean's floor. Oftentimes when I look at my reflection I stare straight into my eyes and ask, "Jesus are you in there?" And as sure as the sun rises new each day, the Holy Spirit says in my child like voice, "Of course He is you silly girl." Then I burst into laughter and proceed with my day.

How comforting to know that wherever I am, He is there also. Living and breathing inside of me.

2011

2011-01-06T06:43:00.007-05:00

The below written prose is also on my poetry blog. I loved it so much, I wanted you to enjoy it here as well. Please, make this year count with everything that you have!

With God's grace and mercy a new year unfolds. Resolve to resolve the resolutions and just live. Be in the moment. Aware of the earth and everything it holds. The moment when the clouds appear as pink as a rose and as soft as cotton. When the sun makes its daily appearance as quiet and as gentle as a newborn sleeps. The moment when a bird sits perched on a nearby ledge unaware of your presence. When the raindrops are falling, replenishing our crops. When Spring flowers first bloom with no help from the human hand. When the Monarch flutters by in the midst of rush hour. When God whispers your name so sweet and lovingly. His promises revealed one after the other.

Be in the moment of a life so overflowing with blessings we often take them for granted. Be aware of the hungry, the sick, the hurting and the poverished. The death and destruction won't last for too long. Be in the moment when Jesus returns and takes hold of your hand. Eyes wide, heart pounding and tears flowing. Your journey on earth will all be worth it, if you live in the moment of worshiping our Lord.

sent w/love
free spirit butterfly

Haiku Mind...

2010-12-26T19:11:00.004-05:00

Write a Haiku relating to the word, emotions.
Have fun bloggers. Here's mine.

Dealing with emotions -
Yell, laugh, cry
and repeat

It's that time of year...

2010-12-15T07:43:00.004-05:00

Celebrations, shopping, excitement, presents, parties, decorations, Christmas lists, traffic jams and even depression.

If you met Jesus face to face, would He know you?

Merry Christmas everyone and many continued blessings for the coming year!

Sent with love,
Free Spirit Butterfly!

God is using you

2010-11-26T16:57:00.004-05:00

For His special purpose
To shine His light
To share His love
To shape His people

You are making a
difference in ways
you don't even realize -

* * * * * * * * * * * * * * *

The above message was a greeting card that I purchased for myself. Oftentimes, when I'm searching for a special card for a loved one or friend, there is a card that speaks to my spirit. I gravitated towards this message and I hung it over my desk to remind me that God using me and the only thing that I can do is surrender.

Are you shying away from something that God is asking of you?

Happy Anniversary!

2010-11-18T16:45:00.004-05:00

Today is my 20th Anniversary on the Police Department. Five more years and I get to be a civilian like most of you. "Yippee!" I have not one single plan in place, I trust in the Lord with all my heart!

I want to say that if it weren't for my career choice, I would not have met Ms. Rosa. She is my BFF and is 94 years young. We met while I was on duty over 6 years ago and we have a bond that will never break. I told her that if she got to heaven first that she would have to save me a seat. Soon after I said that, we both burst into laughter. I'll never forget it.

Have a happy day!
Love, peace and blessings
FSB

Losing control...

2010-11-05T15:45:00.009-04:00

I was reading a devotional last night and it took me back to my youth. Oh what a lost little girl I was. The topic was about trading beauty for wisdom as we grow old gracefully. I never considered myself beautiful. I was so the control freak, the skinny one, the not so smart one, the look at anybody but me one. I used to hang out with the pretty girls and wished that I had their lives. I had no idea why the boys liked me. I had low self esteem and no idea what my self worth was. I certainly did not know what people saw in me. Accepting a compliment was like taking something that I didn't deserve.

In my teens, I was quiet and shy. In my twenties, I was lost with no voice and searching for something, someone. Who? I truly had no idea. I think it was my birth father. At least that sounded good at the time. I trusted and depended on no one. In my thirties, I was a master at people pleasing and did not know it. I had no real goals, dreams or passion for life.

It wasn't until my forties that I started to breathe a little easier, say no every now and again. Not too loudly and not in a way that would draw attention to myself. I smiled, laughed a little louder and started to sing and dance a little, but still in control. Of what, I still didn't know. I just know that in my mind, I held on tight. Whatever I was holding onto felt so much better than surrendering.

My epiphany moment came one early sunny morning in May of 2005, when I was in my family room. Sitting in one of my favorite chairs, Jesus Christ appeared and gently tapped me on the shoulder. We talked briefly and intimately. I invited Him into my life and without realizing that He would take complete and total control; I surrendered myself to Him. As the days and months went on, I started to realize that He didn't need my help. I could relax, release and repent and be loved unconditonally. Boy did the tears come gushing out. It was truly the u-g-l-y cry.

I gave Him all the stuff that I was carrying around from my teens to my forties. Now, at 46, I want this life; my life! I can honestly say that losing control has never felt so good and I don't know about you, but I'll take wisdom over beauty any day of the week.

My window with a view

2010-10-30T13:26:00.004-04:00

There are so many things that we take for granted. And I for one like to truly stop and smell the roses whenever I can. As a matter of fact, when I first enter the grocery store, I stop and smell the roses and Gerber daisies. I rarely buy them, it's just something I like to do before I begin shopping.

Here at our sort of new building at work, I have a very nice window. It's really huge actually. It used to be a school. I have a beautiful passionate purple butterfly taped to the window and I used to laugh and say that it was a replica of me trying to get on the other side. As if, I were trapped behind my desk and swamped in paperwork unable to flee. But I've since made peace with that part of my life. You all know the story behind that...

Anyway, from my window, I love to see the beautiful trees swaying from left to right, leaves drizzling to the ground, the raindrops and down pours of God's glory replenishing his crops, and the first snow flakes that we all eagerly await. As I type this, a big red fire engine just drove by and it always reminds me of little boys who grow up dreaming to be firemen. I've even documented the Butterfly sightings as they happily fluttered by my window throughout the summer.

But truly, this post was inspired by something I see all to often. Families walking by with that look on their face. You know that "something awful has happened look?" It immediately makes my heart sad, because where I sit happens to be right next to the Violent Crime Office, and that look usually means that a loved one was killed. Sorry to say that I'm used to the violent crime, but I never get use to that look that says, "Someone I loved has died."

Not to make light of the situation, but I trust in the Lord and I truly believe that His plan for us in His Kingdom is much bigger and better than this plan that we have for ourselves. I know that it does not comfort the families and will not bring back the loved ones, but we have to hold onto the something while we're down here on earth.

Love and peace always,
FSB

Thinking out loud at 5:38 am...

2010-10-25T05:42:00.006-04:00

It's way too early to talk to people
God surely drove my car to work this morning
Why do people like the TV so loud?
Why are we obsessed with the news?
Why are people rushing to work?
Why can't I drive the speed limit?
Deep breathing...
I truly miss Max
I have gained my weight back ;-)
What's for dinner, again???
Church was great last night
My baby sister joined a Church!
My mom and I are friends
My son just came back from NYC
This job really isn't that bad
Five more years and I get to be a civilian
The butterfly sightings are few
I'm planning a wedding shower in December
I love Ruth's Chris steaks (yummy)
I have no idea what this day holds
I'm finally living an authentic life
Jesus loves me; yes me!

PS - Blogging is awesome!
Love you and always praying...

I'm just the messenger

2010-10-11T10:13:00.004-04:00

One of today's sermon on WAVA radio was about Submission. The Pastor was speaking from 1st Peter 2:13-17.

If we submit to the Government, Our employers and our spouses, life should be a lot simpler. Call me crazy but I totally agree. Submitting to GOD is a no brainer, but oftentimes, the rest of that stuff is complicated, "Right?"

Well give it a try and see how your life begins to transform. Yes, the Govt has lost it's credibility, but overall, I think the jest of it is the stuff we know we should be doing but overlook: Following the laws, running red lights, paying taxes, not drinking and driving, stealing, etc...

Submitting to our Employer is another easier said than done "motto." But ultimately, it's our duty and responsibility and one of the MAIN reasons we get that weekly "paycheck." Simply put, if we don't want to follow the boss, quit and become the "boss."

Lastly, although I'm no longer married, I truly believe in submitting to your spouse. After spending a lot of time reading the BIBLE, I strongly believe that if a MAN knows His role in the relationship, FOLLOWS Christ and loves his wife, she would in turn SUBMIT to him and our dear old friend, Cinderella wouldn't be the only one with the HAPPY ending. Pray about it and see how the Lord begins to reveal Himself to you. It won't be easy, but it can be done.

Again, just the messenger. References can also be found in the Word of God.

Love for a great day!
Free Spirit Butterfly.

The price of peace...

2010-09-30T12:30:00.003-04:00

Haven't we learned anything? I for one never considered myself to be in a recession. Maybe that's selfish of me considering that we're all in this fight together. Now, that I type this, I guess it's one of the reasons that "we are fighting." The Government, our communities and our families. We are selfish and oftentimes greedy people. Wow - that hurts!

I like to think that my walk with Christ is changing me and making me a much softer and nicer person. I am a giver at heart and I like to help where I can. Satan can find subtle ways to convince you otherwise. And for me, that's one of the reasons why I have to stay in the Word of God. Not just because of Satan's voice trying to take me off my path, but because there is some GOOD Stuff in that Book. The BIBLE is the way to a peaceful life. It will convict your heart, change your wicked ways and get you moving in the direction of helping others. It will bring to light all the things that you "treasure and worship" and totally change your focus.

I used to be a workaholic. I worked all the time and then after that, worked some more. I had to save for a rainy day and was convinced in my "mind" that there was no one I could turn to if and when that rainy day came. So funny, now that I type this. GOD was there all along and I could not see him past the fear and control.

As you know, I've been the A/Lt. here at work for the past year and nine months. How awesome is my GOD that my new boss showed up this past Monday? What a beautiful sight to see ;-)

Anyway, I thought about this post because every other person kept asking me if I was going to miss the extra money that you get from that position. It totally boggled my mind that people kept asking me that. The answer was a clear and confident, "NO!" God supplies ALL my needs and if I can't live on what he pays me, then I need to check myself. We are so consumed with MONEY and the THINGS that it provides us that we are letting Satan have his way in our lives.

I am not in a recession, I am not living above my means and I am not worried about how I will "make it" when they reduce my salary. I am beyond grateful to receive a paycheck, however small it may be. I am grateful that I have friends and family that love me for me and I am ever so HUMBLE that my Lord and Savior Saved a wretch like me.

Love for a great day in HIM!

Free Spirit Butterfly

It's that time again...

2010-09-19T07:44:00.003-04:00

I have to prepare another Power Point Presentation. My big day is October 1, 2010, and I am on page 1 (lol). If many of you remember from the past, I renamed it the Triple P.

I use to hate them until I finally gave in and learned to embraced them (with the Help of the Lord of course). Now, the infamous PPP has no power of me!

See ya in a couple of weeks!

Be blessed in the Lord.

Love, peace and blessings for a great week!

Free Spirit Butterfly

A prayer request...

2010-09-14T05:48:00.005-04:00

Good morning blog family -

I would like to ask if you could please pray for my family. Something happened over the summer that has caused some anger and resentment in my family. It has truly made my heart sad and I've been asking the Lord to fix it. Yesterday, I cried about it and resolved the fact that I can't fix it on my own.

I know that forgiveness is a very difficult thing to do, especially when "you" feel so wronged. I heard an awesome sermon yesterday on the way home from the doctors. It was one of those ones that you wished the person going through "it" could have heard because if you tried to repeat "it" to "them", you'd leave something out.

Well anyway, the Pastor was talking about how we carry around "stuff" from our past and when someone hurts us, we automatically return to that hurtful place and it's not necessarily about the current thing that has hurt us, but the memory or memories that we're still carrying around from those past wounds.

I use to be one of those people until Jesus found me sitting in my family room on a beautiful sunny day. He asked me to turn all those past hurts and burdens over to Him and I did. WOW - what an incredible feeling that was. It was like finally dropping a 20 pound bag of potatoes right there on the floor and never having to pick it up again. The freedom that it gave me is something I cannot put into words, because the feeling lives inside my heart.

Thank you and may the Lord continue to keep and bless you.
Free Spirit Butterfly.

It's not about me...

2010-09-07T09:04:00.003-04:00

Lately, I've been feeling "Blah." I can't really explain it and sometimes, we cannot find the words for our feelings. I guess that's one of the reasons they're called feelings. "I just feel......"

Anyway, you know how your inner self is telling you what you should be doing and your outer self just doesn't feel like it? Well that's me. I know what to do and what I should be doing at times, but sometimes, I just don't feel like it. Sort of like exercising and eating healthy would produce great results, but we oftentimes neglect that "old saying" and look for ways to diet and loose those last ten pounds or so ;-)

Sorry, I got off subject for a moment but I was trying to give a useful analogy. The whole point of my post is to tell you that I've decided to Volunteer at an Elementary School. I started this past Friday and boy was it a treat. There were (21) 5 year old kindergartners and it was Finger Painting Day! "WOW"

My Pastor's wife is the teacher and I truly take my hat off to her. She has done this for years and I was completely exhausted after 2 hrs. and 49 min. (They log your hours in a computer)

Everyone kept asking if I was coming back. I had to say, "Yes." Earlier this year while reading Isaiah, I happened upon Chapter 6:8 and fell in love with the verse. So be very careful what you ask the Lord for, because He is listening and He is in the business of answering prayers.

I'm so excited to be of service. After all, they are our future and I'm quite certain that this experience will take my mind off of me and what I've been going through lately. After spending just 2 hrs and 49 min. with those kids, I truly realized "again" that this life is not about me!

Love and peace
Free Spirit Butterfly

Authentic friendships

2010-08-24T07:39:00.006-04:00

The awareness of God's presence with us is encouraging and heartwarming. It is as if we were two friends seated beside a rippling brook, enjoying a gentle breeze on a warm spring afternoon.
(Excerpt - Footprints by Margaret Fishback Powers)

When I need a friend, God is faithful. He answers my call and listens without judgement, criticism or interruption. He comforts and sustains me. For this I am truly grateful.

Love, peace and blessings in Him.
Free Spirit Butterfly
aka - Max' mommy ;-)

Max is in Doggie Heaven

2010-08-13T08:14:00.008-04:00

Good bye my friend

No foot steps
No barking
No droplets of pee

No growling
No panting
No bothering me

No begging
No drooling
No wanting what's mine

No worrying
No sickness
God said, "It's your time."

No crying
No sorrow
No wishing you were here

No Cancer
No sadness
No more living in fear

No exhaustion
No chains
No "Baby what's wrong?"

No injections
No prescriptions
Your spirit has passed on

Close your eyes and drift off to sleep
No leash to hold you, you’re finally at peace

I love you Max, I always will
In my heart, you're with me still

7/18/2000 - 8/12/2010

Old things have past away...

2010-08-03T07:09:00.004-04:00

Yesterday, my son found it absolutely incredible that I gave up TV. He could not believe that I was no longer watching Oprah. It's going on 5 months now and it really didn't dawn on me until he mentioned it... "What - I gave up Oprah?" In the past, she was my BFF for an entire hour. Anyone who knows me, knew that I was unavailable from 4-5. I had this friend who would try to call me about 3:57, just to say hello before she came on. Now that's too funny, when you know someone like that.

But anyway, I write this post to say that I haven't completely given up TV or even Oprah, I just have not had the desire to watch it or her. I have truly mastered the ART of being still. It has come with age, wisdom, pain, forgiveness, journaling and most importantly, HIS grace. I would not trade the journey for anything in this world. HE has truly lead me to a place where for moments and even days at a time, only HE and I exist.

I especially love it when I find a park or lake and HIS glory is so obvious, it simple takes my breath away. It has caused me to create a another journal titled, "What's happening right now?" I sit with HIM and in the stillness, I look and listen for things that are currently happening around me. Not only is it very interesting, it's fun.

Try it. It can be anything from a buzzing noise, to rush hour traffic, to a sweet bird singing to a lawn mower mowing. And then in the midst of that, the sun rises, the clouds move and the water ripples... Absolutely incredible. SO much better than this face paced, rat race most of society has chosen to participate in.

As for me, I'm slowing it down and it feels wonderful.

Just wanted to share.
Make it a great day in the Lord.
Love, peace and blessings
Free Spirit Butterfly

Happy 46th Birthday to me!

2010-07-14T18:55:00.005-04:00

This exhibit has been in my very own backyard for about 2 years. I work just around the corner from the Natural History Museum and did not know that the Butterflies were waiting on me to make an appearance.

Today, I met my very best friend in person. I-n-c-r-e-d-i-b-l-e...

It's like blogging with you guys and hoping that one day soon, we'll meet face to face. Absolutely a joy. What an awesome birthday treat. It beats out ice cream and cake any day ;-)

PS - Patty from Alaska is the only blogger friend that I've had the pleasure of meeting and I still treasure that joyous occasion and that fabulous lunch that we shared at McDonald's ;-)

Love, peace and butterflies!

Waiting and waiting and waiting...

2010-07-05T10:54:00.007-04:00

While reading my devotional this morning, I was reminded that the earth's population is now over 6.6 billion people. WOW! I had to sit with that for a moment. I got such goose bumps. I guess that's one of the biggest reasons why we are always waiting and waiting and waiting. There are either sign in sheets, waiting lists, appointment books, automated tellers, customer service reps that you cannot talk back to, or oftentimes, no service at all.

Let me repeat that, 6.6 billion people. Imagine that you had to wait in line to speak with God. No wonder the lost feel so hopeless. I now have a deeper understanding of why our society has taken a turn for the worst. People just aren't satisfied with the "service" that they are receiving.

How awesome that we can go directly to our Heavenly Father and not wait in line, not have to sign in or push push the pound key for operator assistance? He is patiently waiting on us to "surrender" and turn to him. The really neat thing is the fact that he's "always" available, 24-7. In him is where we will find rest and peace.

Doesn't that last sentence just take you breath away?

Love for a great day,
Free Spirit Butterfly

The dreaded "to-do" list...

2010-07-01T17:05:00.006-04:00

I had it all written out....
*The "Love Dare" book for Chrissy
*A plant for Diane
*Toiletries for my daughter
*Treats for Max
*Cookies for Church

I thought I'd run to at least 3 stores today, but as it turned out, Wal-mart had everything I needed. The plant could have been a little more livelier but Ms. Diane will nurture it with lots of love.

Anyway, I got to the car and started to cross the items off and forgot the sugar cookies. "Oh my goodness. I'm not going back in there," I said to myself. I continued on w/my plans and headed to the park to read my Bible. How incredible that whenever I read it, those little epiphanies make their appearance.

It's perfectly okay that the "to do" list isn't complete. In the past it use to FREAK me out when I didn't do everything on the list - (home & work). Now, when I actually think about it, is it part arrogance or part forgetfulness for us to think that we should? Life's metaphor... if we could accomplish "it" all, then what would we need God for?

The point being, we cannot accomplish it all and we do need him. His job is to help us along the way and w/his help, we can begin to check them off accordingly. If we did "it" by ourselves, like most humans, we'd probably take all the credit.

I don't ever want to be in such a place where I forget to depend on God and forget to thank God. He is my source and my strength and I need him in all areas of my life, even when it comes to something as simple as my "to do" list.

Palsm 18:1
I love you, O Lord, my strength.

What doesn't kill you, will make you stronger...

2010-06-23T06:36:00.008-04:00

The title is a bit dramatic, but it fits me perfectly; at least for today. It's funny when I read the Bible and the "Devotionals" ask about your most trying or difficult moments, I just have to laugh. As I journey through the Bible, honestly speaking - I don't have anything to compare.

But since it's about 2000 years later, I can truly say that my most trying and difficult moments are those of most people; and that is the frustration and tension that you face in the work place.

I'm "still" the Acting Lieutenant and it's only been 1 year, 5 months and 12 days. But, "Who is counting?"

Anyway, today is another Power Point Presentation and I can honestly say that they don't scare me anymore. And, not that I was actually afraid, it was the fact that I didn't have any guidance and I did not and still do not like public speaking. Now that I've mastered them, (power points, not public speaking) I welcome the challenge. I've learned through the entire ordeal that God was trying to build up my character and take me outside my comfort zone.

Yes, I was very resistant and yes, I had a tantrum here and there. It's sounds so funny when I say it, but that experience yielded a Detective Sergeant of the year award as well as a Special Mother's Day interview in our Police News Article. WOW - how incredible is that?

And just think, I was hiding out in my own little world, hoping and praying that God would not pick me. In the end, I've adopted a new motto - Isaiah 6:8 - Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, "Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?" And I said, "Here am I. Send me!"

Followers of Facebook

2010-06-16T09:04:00.007-04:00

Good morning family and friends! If you're looking for me on Facebook, I've decided to give it up. I loved the ability that it provided for me to keep up with you and what you were up to, but there were times where I felt the need to check in and say hi or reply to those who were checking in on me.

I love you guys and miss you all the time, but the Lord is keeping me busy in HIS word. I heard on the radio this morning that a change in beliefs, brings about a change in behavior. After giving it some thought, I made a decision that it was something that I no longer wished to participate in and I closed my account.

I'd LOVE to hear what's going on with you; so if you ever want to stop by here or send me an e-mail at aluv4poetry@yahoo.com that would be so cool!

Know that I'm always praying for you, always!
Love, peace and blessings
Free Spirit Butterfly

Something to ponder...

2010-06-06T07:22:00.001-04:00

Blessings - What if GOD only gave you what you "deserved?"

Punishment - What if GOD gave you what you "deserved?"

Make it a great day!
Love, peace and continued prayers
Free Spirit Butterfly

Give it to GOD!

2010-05-15T07:19:00.002-04:00

Just have to share that I've been praying and praying for my baby sister's salvation and on Mother's Day, she and her kids were SAVED!

love, peace and blessings for a happy life, in HIM!
Free Spirit Butterfly!

Prayer and patience...

2010-04-29T11:56:00.006-04:00

Hello family and friends. I almost forgot my password (lol). I have surely missed all of you and I'm not back quite yet! I have to share what's been going on with me. I'm so over the Thyroid thing, and my health is slowly getting back to normal.

The AWESOME news is that my daughter got SAVED in February and I am so excited I could just "pee my pants," as Julia Roberts said in the movie, "Petty Woman!" I have a new Passion in life and it is Memorizing Scriptures. It was a goal of mine and I never thought that it would happen this quickly.

On 4/18, in bible study, the students were given a homework assignment. The subject matter was about learning to memorize at least 1 verse/scripture a week for the entire year, having 52 memorized at the end. I swear to goodness, I'm at 20 scriptures already; Yes, 20! I'm so addicted, I just want to scream, shout and Praise HIM every moment of my life! He has been soooo good to me and now, knowing that I will see my beautiful daughter in Heaven, when the Lord calls us home, is way more joy than I can type here.

Love you and always praying for you.
* Remember - prayer and patience works!

Love for a great day!
Free Spirit Butterfly

Hello blog family...

2010-03-03T11:31:00.004-05:00

Not sure when I'm going to post again. I'm always thinking about blogging and what I'll say; what you guys are talking about and seeing your smiling profile pictures. Lately, I've lost my desire to write and just feel like blah. Maybe the Lord is trying to redirect my attention for a while. I'm going to be still and see what He reveals!

Love and hugs for a happy life.
Free Spirit Butterfly!

PS see you in the spring ;-)

Don't search the internet for answers...

2010-02-19T11:58:00.003-05:00

Hello family. I sure missed you guys. I went from vacation to hiding out in my bedroom for the past three weeks or so. Before retreating to the bed, I was supposedly diagnosed with strep throat. I thought OK, she's the doctor, but I haven't kissed anybody. I lost a few pounds and really didn't have an appetite. I could barely swallow and thought with meds, I'd get back to my normal self.

After a couple of days, I knew that it was more than that. I began to drop weight like crazy. Not to put my business out there but I went from about 147lbs to 130. After going to the emergency room, I learned that it was Hyperthyroidism. Something I never heard of until I told my dad, only to find out that he had the surgery in 1972. Now we really have something in common ;-)

I'm on meds to keep my heart rate steady and to prepare me for something called Radioactive Therapy. I have little to no energy and go from up all night, to over eating to feeling blue. After treatment, I will switch to Hypothyroid and risk the chance of weight gain and hair loss.

There are also symptoms of mood swings, which means I can act a fool and have an excuse ;-)

After surfing the net religiously, I just knew I had cancer or congestive heart failure. I prayed and talked with GOD. I'd made peace with him and said, "I'm ready, you can take me now." He laughed and said, "You silly child, I'm not done with you yet."

Dear Lord, hear my plea

2010-01-06T20:09:00.003-05:00

Psalm 119:65 & 66

Do good to your servant
according to your word, Lord.

Teach me knowledge and good
judgement.

This year I will....

2010-01-03T19:55:00.004-05:00

Here we go again. By the Grace of God, we've been given another year to get "it" right or make a commitment to do at least one thing differently. Some people don't like to make resolutions and I'm one of them.

Yesterday I went to see Chery Martin of "Excellent Living" and it was very exciting. It was a conference on Jump Starting 2010! The room was filled with women all wanting to make a change! We wrote down three prayers that we want answered for the coming year and were invited back next year to tell the group if they were answered. Here are mine....

I am praying that this year I will complete my journey through the entire Bible. It's day 3 and I'm looking good (smile)

I am praying that the Lord will bring a loving partner into my parents life. They are divorced and currently single.

I am praying that my daughter will receive Christ as her Lord and Savior!

Thanks for visiting me and I'm praying great things for you this year. I'd also love to hear what you'd like to see happen in 2010!

Love and peace!

My wish for YOU!

2009-12-23T12:32:00.004-05:00

Wishing everyone love, PEACE and happiness throughout this Holiday Season. I'm on vacation until January 11, 2010! So I'll see you then.

Know that I'm always praying for you and even if you stopped by for a brief moment, there was a reason that GOD sent you here!

Hugs and prayers,

Free Spirit Butterfly

Spiritual gifts....

2009-12-18T23:25:00.002-05:00

It's that time of year when most people stress out about buying gifts. What to buy, who to buy and how much to spend? Not me; I give to someone less fortunate and to my family and friends; I give out "hugs."

Women's Daily Devotional -
Unlike earthly parents, God the Father gives perfect gifts because they are spiritual gifts uniquely suited to each of us. There's no such thing as a Christian who's been spoiled rotten with spiritual gifts. God gives gifts that fit us perfectly, gifts that fill and complete us.

Letting go... (from one minute prayers)

2009-12-14T06:57:00.003-05:00

Come near to me, Lord

Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Come near to God and he will come near to you! -- James 4:7-8

all days won't be good days, but God is consistent & faithful!

GOD cares

2009-12-11T16:26:00.005-05:00

I just bought a new 2010 Calendar and I was excited to take the paper off. It's a pretty passionate purple with the word Joy on the cover. Each month has a message of promise and faith. Here's a sneak peak at January....

To worry is human. We worry about job security. We worry about unexpected expenses. We worry when our children ride their bikes around the block for the first time. Worry is a normal and natural part of life. But too much worry can distract and paralyze us - and can even lead to a sinful denial of God's presence and grace in our lives. Scripture teaches that we find rest from inappropriate worry when we admit we can't control the future and entrust ourselves - and our loved ones - to the God who does.

"I will be your GOD throughout your lifetime - until your hair is white with age. I made you, and I will care for you."

The Holy Spirit lives in me...

2009-12-06T19:31:00.006-05:00

While in Bible study, (Christian Mentoring from A to Z) last Sunday we discussed the letter "H", the Holy Spirit.

Class notes:
In regenerating us the Holy Spirit brings conviction and "tugs" on our heart to draw us to God. When the "light comes on" as you are reading the Bible and you suddenly understand the passage, this is the illuminating work of the Holy Spirit.

A Christian can grieve the Holy Spirit (Ephesians 4:30) Read Ephesians 4:31, 32; list six sins that will grieve the Holy Spirit, and three attitudes that will prevent it.

Sins that grieve: Bitterness, wrath, anger, clamor,
evil speaking and malice.
Godly Attitudes: Kind, tender hearted and forgiving.

Love, peace and blessings

A life partner

2009-12-03T18:48:00.006-05:00

I once heard that you must be or become the very person you are seeking to share your life with. Not in the sense of being the exact same, but most people are looking for someone not realizing that they must also possess similar qualities & values to sustain the relationship. And by all means, please don't look for someone to make you happy; that truly comes from within.

only speaking from experience...

Love, peace and blessings
Free Spirit Butterfly

Favorite quote...

2009-11-29T07:18:00.005-05:00

Just when the

caterpillar

thought the

world was over,

it became a butterfly!

Happy Thanksgiving

2009-11-18T06:33:00.005-05:00

If I had skills in the kitchen, you would all be invited to my house (all expenses paid - LOL) but since I don't; I'd like to wish you and your families a very Happy Thanksgiving.

I'd like to say a special thank you for visiting my blog, especially when there are times when I haven't a clue what to talk about...

I may not visit with you as often as I'd like, but I'm always, and I mean always praying for you and your families. Believe me, in my line of work, Prayer is my best-friend!

Love, peace and blessings
Free Spirit Butterfly

I had a dream and it came true......

2009-11-14T16:45:00.006-05:00

I met a blogger friend "Live and in person." It was incredible. When I pulled into the rental car parking lot, our eyes met at the exact same time. We had lunch and got to know one another before I dropped her off at the Airport. It was a beautiful experience. Of all the blogger friends I've met over the years, meeting one from Alaska was the last thing I ever expected.

I've always had a dream that we'd all meet at one big cook-out and I'm still holding on to that dream. But until then, who will I run into next?

Love, peace and blessings!
PS. It was truly great meeting you Patty

Is life passing you by?

2009-10-31T15:11:00.004-04:00

Watch how fast the grains of sand flow. Those are the minutes of your life. Live them. Pave with them. Everyday it's your call.

An excerpt from "Simple Abundance"
-Sarah Ban Breathnach

I've had another Epiphany and I'm learning how to "not" empty my in-box, work until I'm exhausted, reschedule dates with friends and most importantly, telling my loved ones, "when I get the chance..."

That chance is "now."

"Who me, Lord?"

2009-10-27T06:04:00.004-04:00

"Abraham was old, Jacob was insecure, Leah was unattractive, Joseph was abused, Moses stuttered, Gideon was poor, Samson was codependent, Rahab was immoral, David had an affair and all kinds of family problems, Elijah was suicidal, Jeremiah was depressed, Jonah was reluctant, Naomi was a widow, John the Baptist was eccentric to say the least, Peter was impulsive and hot tempered, Martha worried a lot, the Samaritan woman had several failed marriages, Zacchaeus was unpopular, Thomas had doubts, Paul had poor health, and Timothy was timid."

The 12 men Jesus asked to be his apostles could have offered lost of reasons why they were not fit to serve. They were common men with no special standing in the eyes of the world. Yet when Jesus called, they came: fishermen, tax collectors and even revolutionaries.

When Jesus calls us to follow him, he's not looking for the smartest or the strongest or the most brave. He doesn't check our resume or call our list of references. Scripture is full of stories of women and men who were used powerfully by God despite their lack of experience or expertise.

Is God asking you to accept an assignment that seems far beyond your comfort zone? Are you afraid that you might fail? Are you afraid that you might succeed?

Which way?

2009-10-19T21:20:00.003-04:00

I ask God for a clearer sign to identify where I'm at and where I might be headed. If I'm on the road less traveled, I question why more people haven't thought to go this route if it is of such value. When I'm rushing alongside the masses on the highway of success, ambition, or status quo, then I wonder why more people don't think to leave this chaos.

Which road are you on? Do you look around at your home, your family, and your job and wonder if you are on God's intended path? Rest in today! Do not give God your "what ifs" as an offering; instead, give him your commitment to go forward with faith and peace.

- an excerpt from One Minute with God for Women!

Love, peace and continued blessings!

A public service announcement

2009-09-29T09:36:00.006-04:00

I have to admit that I waste food. I'm not proud of it and I don't do it with intention. I'm one, a very picky eater and two, somewhat of a hoarder. I don't know where I get it from, but it's a habit that I've yet to break. I stock up on toiletries and food. I have food in my car, office and home. When my son visits, he's always saying, "Mom, why do you have all this food?"

As most of you know, its just me and the doggie. (smile) Anyway, I'm writing this post in hopes to reaching out to Solomon, my blog friend. His comments on my last post really touched my heart. I'm asking that he contact me via e-mail so that I may offer him some assistance. I'm not rich by any means and oftentimes when people think of helping someone, they initially think that they don't have the time or money. There are many ways in which the Lord will use you, if you just start by opening your heart.

I wonder what would happen if we gave a stranger $5 or $10? He/she just might buy a cup of coffee, a breakfast sandwich and a want add. In turn, there could be a job opening in that very same newspaper that he/she is qualified for. Better yet, it just may say, "No experience necessary!"

So, I'm asking that if you can't help Solomon, look around you today in your routine travels and look a stranger in the eye. The eyes never lie (unless the person is a really great actor). The eyes usually say, "I'm in need of something.... food, clothing, a place to sleep, something to eat, a hug, a prayer, etc..." Help someone and watch the rewards overflow in your life!

"Happiness and joy come in this life when we share God's blessings with others!

Love for a great day!

GOD blesses us

2009-09-25T13:05:00.004-04:00

Deuteronomy 15:7 & 8
If there is a poor man among your brothers in any of the towns of the land that the Lord your God is giving you, do not be hardhearted or tightfisted toward your poor brother. Rather be openhanded and freely lend him whatever he needs.

Deuteronomy 15:10
Give generously to him and do so without a grudging heart; then because of this the Lord your God will bless you in all your work and in everything you put your hand to.

Please click this link and let me know if I can be of service to a senior citizen in your neighborhood. Rosa B. Davis' Senior Services

Love, peace and blessings for a great day!

Psalm 5:3

2009-09-16T06:27:00.004-04:00

I've decided to reread the Psalms from the beginning and came across this one last night....

In the morning, O Lord, you hear my voice;
in the morning I lay down my request before
you and wait in expectation...

How awesome is that?

Love for a Great day!

PS - my friend Jen is having a give away
click her blog for more info if it's not too late!

How will you be remembered?

2009-09-08T21:46:00.010-04:00

Since I've come to know the Lord as my Savior, I've been asking him on a daily basis to use me. I have so many blessings that I never imagined possible as a young girl. My past was one of happy times; but also a lot of pain and hurtful times as well. In His amazing goodness, the Lord has continued to sustain me.

During my week or so hiatus from blogging, I have been praying, reading, resting and just being still. I swear, I actually felt as though I was on a well deserved vacation, until the dog would bark and scare the "you know what out of me." Sometimes, I truly forget I have a roommate (lol).

Anyway, I have been pondering with the idea of running an Errand Service for Senior Citizens. Well, I did it. My Non-Profit Business launched on September 4, 2009. It's called Rosa B. Davis' Senior Services and I named it after my dear friend, who is 94 years young! Our paths crossed when she was 87 and it was not by accident. It was all a part of God's plan and purpose for (our) lives. She thinks that I do so much for her, but she has no idea how much she has touched my life!

Each time I visit with her and run little errands, I always pause and think, "If the Lord blessed me with His grace for 94 years, would someone do this for me? She has no remaining family and she calls me her best-friend. Imagine that

It is our goal is to provide quality and professional errand services to the seniors in our community. To date, I currently have 5 clients, including my mom (smile)! I am absolutely thrilled. There are still so many little details to iron out, but I tell you, everytime I talk about it, I get goose bumps. It's way better than my dreams to publish a book!

Writing is still and always will be my true passion. But this, it takes me so outside myself and into the work GOD wants me to do! I will still be posting Poetry from time to time, but I don't know how much time I'll give to this particular blog. I have met so many incredible and beautiful people. Friendships that I treasure beyond words. Although I may not always comment, I will still visit various blogs.

I always check my personal e-mails because that's where my family sends their greetings and make their demands for my time (smile). Call me weird, but I don't check my voicemail but I do check e-mails. So, if you just want to drop a hello or add me to your address book, you can find me at aluv4poetry@yahoo.com

Psalm: 138:8
The Lord will fulfill (his purpose) for me; your love, O Lord, endures forever-do not abandon the works of your hands.

Love, peace and continued blessings
A Free Spirit Butterfly

When the Lord uses people...

2009-08-27T19:22:00.003-04:00

I have been inspired by Lisa Shaw , a blogger friend of mine, to take some time to be with the Lord. I must admit, I've been exhausted from work lately and fell into a rut. Getting home in just enough time to shower, eat and catch an episode of CSI. I always pray and give thanks to the Lord for all my blessings, but lately, I haven't been giving HIM my undivided attention.

So for the next week, I am committed to no TV, no blogging and no Facebook. I'm very excited to see how HE will direct my path, guide and use me. I will miss you guys and will keep each one of you and your loved ones in prayer.

I know that I will dig deeper into my Bible study, but the rest of the time will be spent listening for the Lord's message and purpose for me.

Love, peace and blessings
A free spirit butterfly

Your appointed time

2009-08-26T10:54:00.001-04:00

God has an appointed time to fulfill the visions, dreams, and desires in your heart. Just because it has taken a long time or because you've tried and failed, doesn't mean it's not going to happen. Don't give up on those dreams! Don't be complacent about pursuing what God has placed in your heart. Our God is a faithful God. No matter how long it's been, no matter how impossible things looks, if you'll stay in faith, your appointed time is coming.

Remember, every dream that's in your heart, every promise that has taken root, God put it in there. And not only that, but He has every intention of bringing it to pass. Hold on to that vision today by declaring, "My time is coming. God is working behind the scenes on my behalf. I will fulfill my destiny!" As you continue to hold on to that vision and speak life over your dreams, you'll see them begin to take shape. You'll see your faith grow, you'll see your hope strengthen, and you'll see yourself step into the destiny God has prepared for you!

TODAY'S SCRIPTURE
"For the vision is yet for an appointed time…though it tarry, wait for it"(Habakkuk 2:3 KJV)

The Boogie man...

2009-08-24T13:51:00.006-04:00

Saturday I was channel surfing and happened upon a new show titled "The Criminal Mind." Being a law enforcement officer, I just had to see what it was about. This particular episode was about a serial killer. It ended w/a cliff hanger like most of my "Short Stories." I drifted off to sleep and woke up in the middle of a dream about serial killers.

Sunday night, I was reading Hebrews and happened upon Chapter 4, verses 11-13 and slept through the night like a baby. (Go figure!)

Let us, therefore, make every effort to enter that rest, so that no one will fall following their example of disobedience. For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edge sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow;it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. Nothing in all creation is hidden from God's sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account.

Random thoughts

2009-08-20T20:22:00.012-04:00

This post was inspired by a new blogger friend. Rich Fitzgerald.

I was a little distracted at work today because he recently visited my blog and I because I wanted to return the favor, I was hooked. Then I got frustrated because I hate it when I happen upon a blog and there's not enough time in a day, week or month to read all the past post. For example, my new friend Sherry from Phoneix. We have developed quite the friendship because the Lord sent me to pray for her niece Amy.

You know I've decided not to blog on my days off, so I'm just posting a few random thoughts in no particular order....

I am currently in love with Langston Hughes. A friend of mine just purchased one of his books of Poetry as a gift to me and I've been sleeping with it. (smile) There is a restaurant in DC called Busboys and Poets, dedicated to him. To be there is a feeling I can't explain. It probably wouldn't give you the same euphoria unless you're passionate about Poetry too.

I'm currently posting this as I listen to the First 48 in the background. I'm somewhat addicted. I can watch that, CSI and NCIS over and over again. It came a point where I gave up TV for a while because as you know, we don't want the Lord to get jealous. (smile) How strange that I've been in Law Enforcement for almost 19 years and can come home and watch it on TV???

I'd much rather be on a date. Candle light, some really great seafood and a view of the ocean. But once again, in my line of work. Sleep is a love affair that comes before any offer to take me out on the town. However, as a woman; I reserve the right to change my mind. (lol)

Speaking of being a woman. I have been showing off at work lately. Wearing skirts and pumps and girly stuff like that. Some of my detectives are taking a second look at me, as if I hadn't noticed. I usually wear the power suits; mostly gray, black and brown. But something in me is slowly starting to feel pretty, sexy and powerful. I truly believe when you start getting your swagger on or feeling yourself so to speak; it's something that's always been on the inside. "She" just reveals herself when the timing is right. (just me thinking out loud)

Speaking of thinking out loud. Most of you know that I've been the A/Lt. at work since January of this year and it has really taken me out of my comfort zone. I'm (believe it or not) an introvert who's passionate about Poetry, beaches, sunsets and funnel cake.) I am not a friend of public speaking. But try to tell my supervisors that - as if....

Anyway, we have regular meetings and conference calls and I've done several Power Point Presentations. Yeah, with a mic and everything. It was nothing like the Open Mic night I did where everyone in the room was passionate and applauded at the end. It was totally the opposite. Uptight people, half listening, and mostly waiting for you to slip up. But with Prayer and my red pumps, I somehow manage to pull it off. GOD has given me a confidence that I never knew I had and it's something I would not have discovered had my boss not been transferred.

However, you know the Lord; once you get comfortable, He brings about a change. Now I have to have my uniform ready for media interviews. "WHAT", say it isn't so. You know how they twist your words around and not to mention that the TV is supposed to make you look 10lbs heavier. I guess I'd better get out my Karaoke machine and hone up on my skills and I think I'll cut back on the brownies and start doing a few stomach crunches. If I stumble on my words, at least I'll look great!

Good night!
Love, peace and blessings for a great weekend.
If I don't comment on your blog tonight, I'll see you on Sunday!

HIS gift to you...

2009-08-19T16:39:00.007-04:00

some people are jealous, insecure or even resentful. those people to me are lost souls. some people are sad, alone and unhappy. some people are passionate and some people have yet to discover their passion. some people are merely existing and truly don't know how to participate in life. we all know at least one person like that. and for those people, i dedicate the below scripture. what GOD has for you is for you and you alone! He truly wants you to live a happy life. all you have to do is call on Him!

Matthew 12:6 (NIV)
We have different gifts, according to the grace given us.

My favorite room

2009-08-18T06:45:00.016-04:00

"China's Creations" is my greeting card office. The first photo is very important to me because it shows a picture of my first Poem to the left titled, "The sun on me." It also shows the famous art work of my 2 gran-girls. The orange circle is a personalized crochet gift from my blog buddy, Jen @ Crochet Lady. The Blue water colored Painting "Twin Birch" is another gift that I won & received yesterday from my blog buddy, Patty @ PAKART Alaska, and the 3x5 card on the lower right, is what I used to write down what I love while trying to discover my passion. I was so inspired after attending Oprah's "Live your Best Life tour" at the W.D.C. Convention Center on May 5, 2005! My second favorite room is my reading room!

Answer only if it applies to you.....

2009-08-16T09:39:00.001-04:00

What has GOD done for you lately?

What's your "Happy Cow" moment?

2009-08-11T08:08:00.007-04:00

Has anyone seen the Happy/Laughing Cow commercials w/the cute girl? I love the one where she's had a hectic day at work, gets off just in time to catch the bus. Gets home and puts her feet up to relax, grabs the remote control and realizes that she actually "drove to work" that day! (or something like that)

Anyway, I had a moment like that yesterday! I had just finished my crime meeting and was in such a good mood, I decided to treat myself to lunch. There's NEVER any parking in the city, so I decided to hit a fast food drive in (blah...) As I'm driving down 5th St., NW, I see my favorite spot to the left and a parking space to the right.

Unbelievable, I thought, while talking on my cell phone. I immediately stopped in the middle of the street and made an unauthorized u-turn. After squeezing the car in and working up a little sweat, I got out, hit the alarm and strolled across the street. I was just a smiling and switching. I had on my new Jessica Simpson pumps and I felt great (smile).

Anyway, I walked in and there was no wait. I got a great seat by the window and all eyes were on me. I'd gotten my hair done this past Friday and I was looking hot! Got the menu, glanced over it, trying to figure out what it was I was actually craving and decided on a Turkey Burger & sweet potatoe fries (yummy)!

I just had to call my friend and tell him about the luck I'd just encountered. And while searching through my bag, I noticed that I did not have my "WALLET." No credit/debit card, no cash, no checks; just a big smile. I burst into laughter so hard, tears came to my eyes and again, all eyes were on me.

I was "NOT" leaving my favorite spot w/out a Turkey burger. THANK GOD for BFF. I called mine, and he brought me $20.00

Happy Sunday

2009-08-09T06:00:00.004-04:00

Matthew 21:22
If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.
(NIV version)

HE gives us what we need and not what we want! I've continually asked Him for renewed strength and energy! So with that being said, my Internet service went down this weekend. I was a little upset and then I realized as time went on, I was reading HIS word more. Now I will only blog and Face book Sunday thru Thursday and use my days off (Fridays & Saturdays as Internet free days)

Love, peace and blessings for a very Happy work week!
Free Spirit Butterfly

Unlimited source of Joy

2009-08-02T14:15:00.003-04:00

Are you putting off Joy?

Joy-true joy-originates from God and from living in close connection w/GOD, not from our immediate situation or emotional state. Joy is always accessible to us because God has give us his Holy Spirit (see Galatians 5:22-23). Not only do we have constant access to the Spirit of joy, but this joy is also, according to Nehemiah, our very strength; and it is available now! The enemy tries to deceive us into believing we cannot experience joy-at least not just yet. We buy into the thinking that say, "When this is over, when I finish this, when I obtain that, when I've resolved this... then I can experience joy."

Yet God wants us to know his joy now. Not tomorrow, not when we're healed, not when sorrow has passed, not when we've become successful, not when our child or spouse changes, not when we've lost ten pounds, not when we've paid off our debt, received a promotion or bought a bigger home, but now-this day!

What are you waiting to overcome, obtain or get rid of before experiencing God's joy?

I have to praise HIM, on this day especially

2009-07-30T10:01:00.006-04:00

Today is day 13 for me. Because of my demanding and crazy work schedule, I had to work 13 days straight. I'm now patiently awaiting to attend my morning crime brief and then, with the Lord's Grace, I am headed home to have a love affair w/my mattress. I only pray that I can hear Max barking or feel his licking my hand to inform me that he needs to pee (smile)

Thank you Heavenly Father for my job, my health, my finances, my friendships, for my car starting, the company of Max, an most importantly, for carrying me and covering me. In your Heavenly name, AMEN!

Love and peace for a great weekend everyone.
As I like to say in the world of Law Enforcement,
It's F R I D A Y for me ! "smooches"

The Lord's test... (an e-mail from a friend)

2009-07-28T12:12:00.004-04:00

I woke up this morning and knew today,
The sun would not be shining and the clouds would
be gray. As I stepped outside, rain fell upon my head.
My car wouldn't start so I walked to school instead.
I forgot all of my assignments and I failed all of my tests.
I dropped my head in disgust and asked the Lord for one request.

"Lord, why is it things won't go my way?'
"He gently replied,"Dear child it is because
you didn't thank me yesterday.
I woke you up and enabled you to see the sun again.
I gave you shelter, protected your family and
even let you make a new friend. I blessed you far
greater than I ever had before. But you were too busy
to thank me once more. You didn't feel sick because
I maintained your health. You had money in your pocket
because I maintained your wealth. You had shoes on you feet
and clothes to wear, too. You had plenty of food to eat,
and what did you do?

You ignored me and went about your tasks. But when
you wanted something you never hesitated to ask. I was
there when you needed me and this wasn't too long ago.
But when things started going your way,it was me you
did not know. As if this weren't enough, I provided your
favorite luxuries. This was something I didn't have to
do-they weren't even necessities. And when it was
time to get on your knees and show your gratitude, You
decided after such a fulfilling day, you weren't in the mood.
So I decided to give you just a little test. To show you how
it would feel to stop being blessed.

"I began to realize what the Lord was saying. And when I
got home, I fell to my knees and started praying. He said,
"My child, you have learned and you know I do forgive.
But remember this day as long as you shall live. I love filling
your life with joy, and your pain I'll alleviate it. But just a
simple thank you would show how much you appreciate it."

What have you got to loose?

2009-07-26T06:31:00.002-04:00

My dear friend Myriam sent this to me! You don't have to be a famous Poet to enter. I'm going to submit something and I think you should too!

CALL FOR ENTRIES!Enter the only WD competition exclusively for poets, theWriter's Digest Poetry Awards! Regardless of style—rhyming,free verse, haiku and more—if your poems are 32 lines or fewer, we want them all. Submit your entries by the December 15, 2009deadline ... and your words could be worth cold hard cash!
First Place: $500Second Place: $250Third Place: $100Fourth Through Tenth Place: $25Eleventh Through Twenty-Fifth Place: $50 gift certificate to Writer's Digest BooksPlus, the names and poem titles of all First- through Tenth-Place winners will be printed in the August 2010 issue of Writer's Digest,and all winners will receive a copy of the 2010 Poet's Market.

In HIS Holy comfort...

2009-07-23T08:13:00.005-04:00

A coworker told me that Psalm 91 helped her through her grieving process when she lost her son a few years ago. I just wanted to share a verse with you. The entire Psalm is breath taking!

Psalm 91:4
He will cover you with his feathers,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.

Love for a great day!
Free Spirit

Effective Prayers

2009-07-21T06:15:00.004-04:00

Lord, I come to You today with my burden of sins. I hold each transgression up for a second look at my humanity. I place them in Your light for a closer look at Your grace. The practice of asking for forgiveness is important to my relationship with You. First, I am humbled and emptied of self. Then I am cleansed and filled with Your Mercy.

When I pray, Lord, I know You hear me. I become vulnerable in Your presence because I have great faith in Your protection. May You call me righteous, and may my prayers be deemed powerful and effective.

As Human Beings we are all born of sin. Our Heavenly Father knows this and that is why we wants us to come to him in constant prayer and seek forgiveness! He does not keep track, that is a burden we've placed on ourselves. Give it to HIM!

Do not be afraid.....

2009-07-19T06:55:00.004-04:00

Exodus 14:13&14
Moses answered the people, "Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today. The Egyptians you see today you will never see again. The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still."

Although this scripture was written over two thousand years ago, this still applies to our daily lives. It may not fit your current circumstances, but it inevitably will. So remember; you need only to be still.